El Fin

I'm finished WRITING my story....now I have to type it up and have some1 edit it....gosh I'm happy right now :) can't talk now. there's very few days left of April and I have yet to start my Script Frenzy stuff D:!

GIANT LOLLIPOP

I love them :P

So apparently people in my school are trashtalking me....so this post is for them.
Go ahead and trash talk me all you like behind my back. Be a bully to me, just remember what happens when people get bullied. Haven't we had enough of having to remember people this year? Without being able to see them anymore. I will tell you I'm on the edge of that, not going to happen of course but I'm on the edge of it so don't go pushing me around. If you want to trash talk me, watch out for my sister I will warn you. She is a great sister and isn't going to sit around and let you be mean to me. I will have a word with you tomorrow Daniel for this, hopefully before she gets to you. I hope you aren't a wimp and can't say what you are saying to others to my face. I'm perfectly willing to let you trash talk me....other people aren't. Just a warning. And Remember Jake and Tyler didn't have to die for nothing. Please honor their memories and don't trash talk people. Don't be a bully. Please just don't...

Jake and Tyler....I love you and miss you greatly <3

Random Quizzes >:P

okay maybe I does have time to be on the internet b4 my parents find out >:P I could do random quizzes all day by the way....It's just something that I can ALWAYS do :) they don't exactly cheer me up much but I still love to see what some1 thinks about me :)

Which Hogwarts house will you be sorted into?

Your in-depth results are:

Hufflepuff - 17
Ravenclaw - 13
Gryffindor - 11
Slytherin - 6


http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18368718/what-lies-behind-your-eyes
 What lies behind your eyes?

Down to Earth

You know what you want. You are a very nice person. Your most confortable outside, and with people who are honest and trustworthy. You probablly have contemplated doing bad things, but you will always stay true to your roots, feelings, love, and friends. You will have an amazing life.


http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18508693/could-you-be-a-dinosaur
 Can I be a Dino? Hell 2 the yes I can :D

TRUE DINO, MY FRIEND

just like me my dino friend, we are just to awesome for the world to handle and thats why we have to keep our dinosaur-ness a little bit of the secret. wouldnt want the government running tests, ya know? ;D

 http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18496438/what-kind-of-a-place-are-you
 What kind of place are you?

You're a deep sea!

Just like the sea you're unpredictable and mysterious. You are sensitive and caring and take life seriously. Kind of a sad and melancholic you don't seek intimacy however when you find your soul mate you're loyal and loving.Usually a calm person but when someone crosses the line you can break him into pieces.

http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18207428/how-high-is-your-self-esteem
How high is your self-esteem?

You've got low self-esteem. You're not proud of who you are..

Maybe right now you don't see everything that you wish you did in the mirror. But I believe that you are beautiful, everyone is, and you've got to forget how others look and/or what they say. The only thing that matters is what YOU think of yourself.

http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/17623621/are-you-a-drama-queen
Are you a drama Queen?

You're Sorta Dramatic

You definitely enjoy a little bit of drama every once in a while. You’re not addicted — but it can be really easy to get sucked in. Try to think clearly in all situations, and remember how drama has upset you in the past. If you take control now, you can save yourself from becoming a drama queen later!


http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18453002/what-kind-of-world-do-you-belong-in What kind of Word do you belong in?

You belong where ever your heart takes you!

You have a strong heart... It's best to follow your dreams. Go where ever you wish, and dont let anyone stop you. If you dream enough, and hope enough, you'll get there! I promise.

http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18502193/what-type-of-bear-are-you What kind of Bear are you?

Giant Panda Bear

Even if you may yourself circulated by danger, you're very cuddly, and love to eat many different foods and try different things. You're pretty unique in your own ways than anyone else.




 http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18351064/callin-all-disney-princess-fans-wanna-know-which-girl-you-are-most-like
What Disney Princess are you?

You are the pretty and smart Belle!

You are Belle, the pretty and smart Disney girl. You're intelligent and clever and don't really like to fool around much and would not like dumb things! You love your family and friends and look deep inside a person's heart to understand him/her.    *I disagree I wanna be Ariel!*




 http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18336170/what-does-your-smile-say-about-you
 What does your smile say about you?

Normal Smile

Your smile shows that you are an average person.You have no deformations, and you are of average intelligence. Study harder for a test and live your life a little more unusual.       *I think it says that I take 2 many quizzes >:P*


 http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/18301786/8002740/
 What Song are you?

The In Crowd by Mitchel Musso

You are judged, indifferent, and you don't care what people think of you. *hasn't heard this song*


 http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/18490214/what-egyptian-god-are-you
 What Egyptian God are you?

Nut                *I'm NUT!!!!!!!!!! YESH*

The sky is Nut's body, arching from horizon to horizon.             *WHO IS NUT?!?!?!!?* lolz

Animals are my Happy Place

Well....this week has been a hard one....and I'm still not supposed to by on the internet so this is going to be a quick post of just a link I think yall should look at...I needed some pictures to put a smile on my face after this week. So here's my pictures :) http://weruletheinternet.com/2011/03/28/30-animal-pictures-that-will-put-a-smile-on-your-face/
I must agree that this pictures are adorable and I'm smiling from them :) has anyone tried the Carmel Toffee Cookie Blizzards at Dairy Queen? I think they are DA BOMB! lolz <3 shall ttyl when I get internet privileges back I will do some quotes stories...until then I leave you with this pictures of kissing ducks and kissing elephants. I might be a little obsessed with animals :) but they are so adorableeeeeeeeee :D

 Of course I couldn't decide which kissing elephant I liked the best....but hey elephants are smartys and cuties can't help myself <3

*gets quickly offline b4 parents notice* >:P

Suspension!

Well since I last wrote on here I got suspended. Tuesday....for 2 days....and my parents have currently taken away my cellphone and computer privileges (my mum is sleeping right now). Suspension I think is the best thing ever though. I'm the only person I know that would think that. It was the BEST. I could listen in on conversations going on in the office...I didn't really feel like doing that much though. I had a little cubicle to work in and that little cubicle I could work in everyday. It was peaceful even with all the dramatic stuff that was going on around our school. There was counselors that kept walking past and conversations that were too loud for me to ignore at times, but I greatly enjoyed my little cubicle.
So I worked on my story the whole time I was there really and I'm almost done. I could do whatever I wanted to do in that cubicle, as long as I was there and behaving. No one of course was paying attention to me though because of the traumatic experiences that my school is yet again going through this year. It's good that I wasn't in class during this anyways because I wouldn't be able to handle it. I just wish it hadn't happened. I just wish the only thing that happened on Tuesday was that I had gotten a suspension.
Yesterday was the anniversary of Columbine. Yesterday I found of that my brothers friend had died from a self inflicted gunshot wound on Tuesday. I felt horrible for it. Before I found this out...early Wednesday morning. I wrote something down to sort of explain my suspension.

I just want to take the time to put that on here now before I ask that we have a moment or two of silence for Jake and Tyler and both of their families. They both were to young to go and will be missed very much. RIP Jake and Tyler. Jake please watch over Tyler as he joins you and have fun if you can. I hope its happier up there. I miss you so so much. I wish you were still here.You and your cute smiley self. Always smiling and Tyler...I know that I didn't know you that well but I still know who you were and I walked past you in the hall everyday. You always had a smile on your face when I saw you also. Wish I could have known you better. I know that Paul misses you greatly.
It doesn't feel right to mush my suspension and my friends deaths into one post, but they are sort of intertwined in my mind right now. I haven't fully accepted that Tyler is gone yet because I haven't been with my friends for the last couple of days. He is still alive in my mind, just like Jake is. They just both aren't around is all.

So here is what I wrote....
How would you like it if you have to be disrespectful, cruel, and stupid to keep from breaking down everyday? You know it is wrong but you rather do that than breakdown because breaking down causes more pain.
How would you like it if you can't tell anymore without the pain coming? How would you like it if once the wall is down you can't stop the pain?
I've been hurt so many times that I can't even remember who does the hurting because it's so painful to remember. Short term memory loss. I can't tell anyone because I've taken up the habit of blocking it all out. It's just when the wall comes down that it starts to explode. I can't stop the pain and no one can help me because I can't talk about it. All I can do is lash out until the wall goes back up, and I hope it goes back up before too many people get hurt from me. I can't stop, I don't know how to stop.
I've prefected being a bitch to everyone. I've perfected keeping everyone away from me, still people get hurt from me when I lash out.
I can tell when it's coming. I know when I'm about to last out and I try to get out of the situation, but I can't stop myself no matter how hard I try if I can't get out of the situation. If someone suggests something that I know is mean than that is going to get done because I can't control myself.
Teachers are supposed to be safe right? Safe to go too. Safe to trust. They aren't though, they are just as bad as everyone else when it comes to causing pain. If I told you which teacher it was that did this to me, caused me pain that is, nothing would be done because he is a teacher and I'm just a student. I would be told I'm overreacting. Why must this pain must continue? Why won't it just leave me alone? I just want to be left alone.
No one is on my side and I have no purpose in life. Not my words. People tell me to go die everyday. They bring scary thoughts into my head each day. I don't know how much longer I can deny what they tell me. I don't know how much longer I can live in this pain.
Jake....Tyler....I don't know how much longer it's going to be before I come join you.

Day of Silence April 15th.

Okay so I might be just a little late on posting something about this...but I wasn't able to post anything about it until now so this will just have to do. I wrote up something on Friday about DOS and I wanted to share it with someone. So here it goes....

Today, as the Day of Silence, I ahve sat back and watched you, my fellow classmates. Many of you took a card I gave you, saying you couldn't do it because you like talking, but you fully support it. I wanted to ask you if you really do. If you support it fully, one day with silence wouldn't kill you would it? One day with silence seems to me like a small amount to ask of people to do for a world without bullying. I guess that's why we have bullying though, no one cares enough to stop it?
Today, I myself got bullied for my SILENCE and cards. People made it into a game to get me to talk. In fact my own FATHER made fun of me for it. I don't care though, I want bullying to end so I will stand by what I believe in. I believe that no matter who you are you should be able to be you without being bullied. I understand what it feels like to be bullied for what your beliefs are much better now. I've always been bullied, but only today could I see a reason behind cutting me down and want to stop it from happening to others.
I wish we didn't have a Day of Silence, I with there weren't people who were bullied. I wish people would speak up for them. The people that do speak up, I'm glad they do because many of the people that see the bullying don't speak up. We do a Day of Silence to bring awareness to this and try to get more people to realize what it going on and DO something about it.
I hope that you realize what went on today, and I hope you do think about what you can do to help the bullied. It takes someone who has been bullied or affected by it to do anything about it it seems. It doesn't have to be that way though.
Please help stop the silence. I don't know about you, but what's wrong with there being no bullies? Sounds like a perfect place to live.

Protect those who don't speak out. Speak up for them. Don't let them be a victim any longer

Yeah...I wrote that on Friday and every word of it is true. I really did get pushed around and bullied for what I believe in that day and it helped me to understand better what was going on everyday in this horrible world. I just don't get why people look down on each other, it's not right. I'm not saying that I don't do that, but I try not to and I try my hardest not to hurt others feelings and if I do, I say sorry, I comfort them, I don't bully.

Lap dogs may be kool...but LapGiraffes win by far.

About Petite
Lap Giraffes!
Petite Lap Giraffes are very funny animal that require special care. They need lots of love. Hugs and kisses every day. Otherwise they make tears.
If you have children, petite lap giraffes no problem. If child is loud, the giraffe will be shy, but does not bite. PLG’s are very clean. With training they will go in box like cats. Allergies never a problem.
Size: adult is 76 centimeters, baby is 15 centimeters tall. Weight is 4.5kg unless the giraffe is fat cow then 5.44kg
Diet: distilled water and bonsai tree leaves
Health problems: none. They are the best.
Gestation: 420 days
Living conditions: PLG’s love being indoors in filtered air conditioning. If they can listen to music of Nikolai Rimsky-Korsakov it is dream.
Grooming: a bubble bath once a week with purified water is all they need.


About Sokoblovsky Farms!
It all started when Great Grandfather Nicolas escaped circus with best friend Alex, the giraffe. The rest they say is history. For the next century our family have made business of Petite Lap Giraffe breeding here in Russia. We welcome you to visit Sokoblovsky Farms, just 80 kilometers outside Krasnodar.

Don't you think I should get a pet giraffe? :D It can live on my book shelf its small enough <3 :)

 TTFN *hugz and kisses* I love giraffes :) they are so cute

The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars

I have to admit....I am a sucker for Bruno Mars. I love his songs and his voice and blah blah blah anyways he's amazing. And so today I am going through my youtube subscriptions and can't help but notice that Bruno Mars's Lazy Song has an official musik video now....so I watch it...My day has just been greatly greatly greatly made. It combines two of my favorite things...musik and MONKEYS together....watch it...it's hilarous!

Oh and here's another one of my subscribed peoples that I really like...I just can't help but sharing them with you they are so talented! 

Karma is a generous woman Quote #5

Karma is a generous woman
until her balance is upset,
then you will find out why
people say she's a bitch.

 

"Hey! you there!" Nemo yelled as he swam towards the turtle. "I want to go with you to school immediately!"

"Okay, okay, I will take you there get on," Karma the turtle replied. "Don't push anyone off like last time though."

Karma swam off with Nemo riding her wave and she quickly headed towards the school. She remembered back to the time that Nemo had gone and killed one of her children by daring them to go poke a shark. She wasn't yet over it, but she did have to make money to feed her other babies so here she was shuttling around fishbabies again. Nemo was the worst, but his parents paid big food to have him shuttled WHEREever WHENever he wanted to go somewhere. He sometimes would call in the middle of the evening demanding a ride. It drove Karma insane, because that was her time with her children. The ones that she loved and yet Nemo could interrupt. Nemo's parents were the big fish in the corral reef that Karma lived in and if she didn't do as they paid her to do in the exact way they wanted, they could see to it that she was never able to get work again anywhere. 

So when Nemo demanded a ride to school, she jumped at it. Unlike what most parents thought when they send their babies to school, the schools was dangerous. It was one the most dangerous part of the corral reef and no one but the students and teacher dared to go there. It was hard to find a new teacher every few months because so many of the fishes valued their lives. The students thought it was fun though, which is why the parents didn't know how dangerous it was. As children themselves they found excitment in it and just couldn't imagine it being dangerous. That's why when Karma took Nemo there, she had no problem with it because his parents would let him go there. 

Karma the turtle swam as fast as she could there. If she got there before most of the students got there with their teacher, than she could do what she had planned. She got there with barely 5 minutes and convinced Nemo that she didn't feel comfortable leaving him there alone since it was a dangerous place. He laughed in her face and swam to the playground. With an evil grin, Karma swooped down, she bit part of his fin and he screamed in pain. "Hey!" Nemo skreeched at her. Karma laughed dangerously and then swam off to get back to work. She knew what the blood from him would attract and she didn't want to be there when it got there. 

Nemo was too much of a snob to really know how to live in the corral reef. So it was no surprise that after the initial shock of getting bit, Nemo decided to keep playing and tell his teacher when he got there. As Karma swam hurriedly away, the very same shark that had eaten her child swooped in and Karma swam into a fishies home giving the alert that there was a shark. Then she made a show of sadness and worriedness because she had just dropped Nemo off. 

Once the shark had gone, everyone raced out to the playground, all that was left of Nemo was a cloud of blood in the water. Karma smiled happily and then acted distressed as she swam home. At home she told her family happily that their enemy had been taken care of and they all rejoiced. From that moment on Karma went about fixing everyone's problems. If someone did something bad, then something bad would happen to that someone as revenge. She wasn't so stealthy about it anymore once her children had all moved out. She didn't feel like it mattered if she was caught anymore because her children were safe from experiencing problems from her. When she died of old age, one of her children took on being Karma, calling herself that and everything. The phrase

Karma is a generous woman

until her balance is upset,

then you will find out why

people say she's a bitch. 

came from the first Karma killing Nemo, but was just intensified by all the Karma's that came after her.

Relay for Life

So we had relay for life last night....up all night walking around a track and playing games and such. It was a lot of fun, but of course very tiring. My camera died not even half way through the whole thing and my phone followed it in death shortly after. My friends and me had been calling some of my other friends and just randomly chatting with them (funny part is my friends don't know each other) and we were videotaping it randomly. We of course didn't get the good parts on tape though :c.

 My Uncle Marv was recently diagnosed with 2 types of cancer. We think and hope that they are all gone now after his surgery. Get well soon Marv and out of that hospital :)

 Hey it's my name! My namesake...Great Grandma Mildred had a cancer that I can't spell and have no clue what it is...it starts with an L tho....like Lymphode or something like that....

 My grandpa that I never met. My brothers namesake. He had two types of cancer also...I forget the first one but he ended up having bone cancer. He died less than a year after being diagnosed. He never got to see his grandchildren.

 They were doing something....That had to do with moving around to much for me to get a good picture in lolz. Karate but not....

 Maddy! My lover :) <3

 Our random phone calls. Maddy is the one that put the camera on video...I have no clue how to change it back now :P Thankz for that Maddy love <3 and yes I have no clue how to work my camera lolz.

 Naea...my rental sister who has a sexy male voice because she is losing her voice :P

 She's a weird child....

 dun dun dun Naea talking talkin talking much?

 Haha I love my face with the blurriness :D!

 Yea I was having a lot of fun at Relay for Life....look at my stomach though D: argggggg noo D:

That's the inside track that we were in. You can see the camp over there. This years event wasn't as big as it normally is and most of the people that were there ended up leaving not even halfway through. Oh well...it was fun still. Since my camera died I wasn't able to take pictures of all the fun stuff that we did and all the fun people that were there (you know who I'm talking about children that were with me)

Collage from da GOOGLE!

I LOVE google....

Price Tag

So I'm getting a new roommate for the next four months. Last night I had a complete breakdown and then again this morning. My sister has told me that I have no purpose in life and that I should go kill myself. Now I will be living with my little sister instead of my older sister. I'm kind of GREATLY glad about that. One of these days if my older sister didn't stop with her bitching I probably will be following what she says. I mean I kind of have to agree with her....I DON'T have a purpose in life, whatever though. I have to live with life so I just try to block her our. I suck at it I will tell you that though.
So in English I am writing an essay on the innocence of growing up and what that has to do with To Kill A MockingBird. and of course I had to urban dictionary the word!
adj, n, o so adorable. couldn't ever do anything wrong, big eyes that prove they're not guilty of anything. Looks as if they couldn't do a lot of things. but really, they're the best at some ;)
1.not having done sth. wrong
2.having little experience of the world, expecially of sexual matters, evil or unpleasant things.
Looks sweet and cute , and with those eyes could do no wrong! .... Always tries to be bad but is just to goooooooooood , hehehe! .... The only thing missing is the Halo above them!

Completely unaware. Usually found in infants to very young children.

perfectly sweet; never committing any crimes or breaking rules; never gets in trouble because doesn't do anything wrong; above suspicion, angelic, chaste, clean, cleanhanded, clear, crimeless, exemplary, faultless, free of, guilt-free, guiltless, honest, immaculate, impeccable, impeccant, inculpable, irreproachable, lawful, legal, legitimate, licit, not guilty, pristine, pure, righteous, safe, spotless, stainless, unblemished, uncensurable, uncorrupt, unguilty, unimpeachable, uninvolved, unoffending, unsullied, untainted, upright, virgin, virginal, virtuous 

 I Know that is a lot of definitions. but Hey I can't help myself. Now I have to go help my little sister clean her room so she can get moved in with me as fast as possible. TTFN <3

Teheehee I call being the old lady gnome! :) <3

For the King's Favor

Oh so well...For the King's Favor is in my book list witch I'm putting up on my fb account :P It's a really long list but I must say that I am greatly enjoying using BookTracker....I like the fact that I used Witch which isn't of which :P oh well...let's just let me fail for a bit. So today one of my friends suggested that I make a book of my pictures that I color in Algaybra 2 because I gots ta make a new one EVERY day...Helps me concentrate. I get off track VERY VERY easily.
So I was stumbling (which i seem to do a lot of these days) and anyways I came across this link and as I'm telling you this I'm watching the weirdest strangest YouTube video...which I feel that I must now share with you!
http://www.des.emory.edu/mfp/efficacynotgiveup.html

 Ok...now that I've got that out of the way....We shall talk about what I was actually going to write about. So there's this problem with me cleaning my room. I always get yelled at because I share a room with my sister and she doesn't want me to touch her stuff. I'm only trying to be nice cause she always seems to be busy so I just clean her side to. But I got annoyed with getting yelled at so I decided that I would JUST clean my side of the room. She gets pissed anyways. So I put duck-tape down on the floor so she knows where my half is...though it isn't split evenly. Her half is actually bigger than mine, I'm not complaining though. She has a lot more stuff than me anyways (Plus this is her last summer in my room...SENIOR YEAR!) Then I get the room to myself *thrilled about*.
So I'm not really a techy person, but I want to start like posting videos on YouTube....cause I want to know if I'm any good at singing and it seems the best/meanest critics are on youtube. I don't exactly have anything to do but sing. So I'm looking for advice on that. Should I try playing the piano or cello while singing even though it doesn't sound very good or what? I have never taken singing lessons or been in choir or w/e. So I know zilch about singing :) I just know that it makes me feel better when everything is going wrong. So anyone have advice for me? :) Should I just go for it or what? Oh and I don't exactly have a camera...I have a webcam and than for a mic I would be using the RockBand mic we have :P Yes I'm very untechy....anyways I'm getting yelled at to go to bed so I shall get back to you later.
Yoga+a Mildred=Mildred giggling the whole time+people getting mad at Mildred
I don't think I'll be doing Yoga again and I keep wanting to call it Yowa :P lolz we did it today in Early Bird PE.

~Hugs and kisses~ *pointz up* like that! :) <3

Please help control the Human population Quote #4

Please help control the Human population: spay or neuter your humans.

Well isn't that just a great quote! I don't really have a story idea for this...plus my idea of a story is already taken...so Yea....

This book :) It's a great series...I think I have read them all...I don't remember....And then there was the whole China One Child Policy thing...."China has proclaimed that it will continue its one child policy, which limits couples to having one child, through the 2006-2010 five year planning period. The policy limits couples to one child. Fines, pressures to abort a pregnancy, and even forced sterilization accompanied second or subsequent pregnancies."

I personally find books about limiting couples reproduction an interesting topic...mind that they have to be fiction book for me to want to read them...I also find that it is interesting that Japan has like no children being born anymore. There's this thing called gurls wanting to work nowadays. If they settle down and get married...have kids...they feel like they can't work. Isn't that great :) So yea...other than provide you with that info on my favorite quote I don't really have anything to say....Just get em all neutered! We do it to animals anyways...Did you know that in Australia some sheep people just bite off the sheep's balls to neuter them...I would love to see this :) Sounds oh so interesting :D

Cute baby animals!

Well....4-h was great :P

Now I have to listen to my dad bitch...what a great roll model he is =.= and so guess whos depression is going to come fullblast perty soon...*pointz @ self* damn it....ok making my self happy...BABY ANIMALS!

 

Pretty White Tiger babies <3

Baby Polar Bear!!!!!!

Baby Aye-Aye...w/e that is...

 Cheetahs...who wishes they could run as fast as them!

 Aardvark! Their noses make me happy >:P

 What a cute Elephant :)

 Lesser Demons! jk jk...Lesser Pandas <3

 Lions I love them so much :) I have so many lion stuffed animals

 Marmoset....I want a pet one of those to cling to my finger <3 c:

Cotton-Top Tamarin...I think they are gorgeous

Dolphin (one of my FAVORITE animals)

http://dalesdesigns.net/BA1.htm

I found an awesome baby animal website :D!!!!!!!!!!!

The Advancement Bureau

I watched that movie yesterday :P after sleeping all day...Gosh it's the 10th of April and I haven't even started on my script yet because Ive been so caught up in working on my story...I have a problem with starting something new when I'm already working on something...It just doesn't work out for me.
So my dreams have been getting more and more bizarre. I've been reading this book lately and of course because of it it has been leaking into my dreams....

Oh and then theres the fact that this morning I was having the strangest dream. The only thing I can think of that would make me dream this (yes I like connecting dreams with my life) is that the movie had a lot of water references. My dream took place in a pool...I kinda want to write a book that has my dreams in them...That would be a little creepy of a book but I totaly should...after I finish my other ideas and such...
So I have 4h today so I don't exactly have a lot of time to chat with you...one of these days I will come up with some time I swear I will :\
Oh and just on a happy note! My uncle who went in surgery about 2weeks ago is at my gmas house now and the doctors say that they got BOTH types of cancer that he had out. Hopefully that's all there is to it and he will be healthy and no more chemo for him. :) I hope so...it's been hard on his family and everyone has been concerned for him.

Suffication

Sometimes I feel like crying,
others I need to be dying,
Right now I just want to beat someone up
and get rid of this feeling.

Everyone in this world is against me,
why can't they just see?
They are slowly killing me,
and I'm slowing going away,
Someone please just stab me, crush me
kill me in my sleep,
get ride of this pain that makes me want to weep,

I know that of course you won't because
you are the one that makes me feel
this way
The world should learn
what its like to be bullied
what its like to be forgotten
what its like to be ignored and crying
why can't they get it over with?
I just keep falling, falling to pieces
with no one to pull me out.

Nothing is my friend
I can't count on anything or anyone
I'm ready to move on
but I can't
there's so much pain
in the world I want gone
How am I suppose to kill it though

The world should learn
fighting doesn't solve a thing
peace and justice don't exist
teachers are monsters in disguise
they just walk around to bully you

So let me know
when the world learns
until then I'm done
won't be back ever again
Bullies, words, fighting, teachers
Teachers teach nothing but more pain
good-bye cruel world
I am done sufficating!

Father Son Holy Spirit Amen

we had to make a poster in religious education class 2day about wut we thought about when we thought of heaven...My thoughts were the "wrong" thoughts according to everyone there...I think of fire...devils....hell...all that gud stuff...so I just put down "Mildred is The Opposite" with 69 in the O of opposite because I got bored...ive been off my anti-dee pill for about a week now and I think I might be getting over withdrawal effects *hopes*
So Theres this one guy that Im always asking if he wants to do this or that with me and some friends...answer is always he's busy....he has work....he has soccer practice....his friend likes me so he doesn't want to get in the way.....wow when is he just going to say flat out "Get lost bitch" I'm waiting for that...until then I'm gonna keep at him about it...I haven't gotten to the point where I realize why everyone seems 2 hate me....
My sister is so lucky that I don't do everything she tells me to...she keeps telling me to go OverDose and die....how nice of her....

This might seems a bit random...but it is my favorite drink at the moment...Raspberry iced tea...its the bomb :) tootles...I have writing to do...Gosh I wish I had more time...

ScriptFrenzy

Ok...since I haven't yet had time to inform you all of this...and I just happen 2 have thought I was going to be late for school (I misread the clock)...I think I have time today to inform you that this month is ScriptFrenzy. Because of this I probably won't be getting on a lot because I am going to be working like mad to write this script of mine that I have sort of planned out. One of my friends sucked me into doing it so I'm writing a story about what her life WOULD be like in the future. It's going to be very interesting.

I have been having the best dreams lately....So I sort of HATE getting up...I would prefer to just sleep all day...it's not an option though...Oh well. So I'm completely off my antidepressant and can feel the withdrawal...not FUN.
I'm really too tired to come up with anything of interest to say I guess :\ My godmother and father are visiting! Went to my gmas house yesterday and they were there...They live in like New Hampshire *visiting them this summer* and so I nvr see them. I see my godmother at least once a year I guess...but my godfather I NEVER see. I haven't seen him is so long I can't even remember when I last saw him. Not when I was in Middle school or High school that's for sure! I had a great time there :)

April Fools

Well I couldn't get on on april 1st because I was avoiding doing anything on April Fools day....lolz that was a great thing 2 do :P I was gotten a few times yesterday and I kinda sorta don't like that day :) So I'm sad because yesterday I went to get a cookie at Casey's cuz i decided I wanted a cookie and they had NO cookies :c anyways I'm good....ttyl :P lolz I'm reading To Kill A MockingJay in English class atm...I like da book.