Farming and I Grow It

It totally just came to my attention that I forgot to share one of my favorite videos ages ago! D: I found this during fair week :}

Check it out if you haven't seen it already XD It's really catchy.....then again the I'm Sexy and I know it song was really catchy too XD

Raccoon Releasing

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  So once upon a time, I woke my brother up to go do chores. He complained a lot but went and did them. He came back inside screaming that we had caught a raccoon in the cage by the chickens
• So he was going to get the cage and put it in the truck so that we could take it miles and miles away from our house so it wouldn't come back.
• Well he couldn't get the cage outta the ground (it was staked down) and it was really hot out. We didn't want the panting raccoon to die, so we decided to let it out.
• So we got the truck and drove it over to the cage. Then we got a hose, crowbar, and shovel. We were using the crowbar and shovel to release the cage and the hose to protect ourselves!
• Oh wait....my brother says the hose was to cool it down <.<
• So anyway....we were slaving over trying to get the cage open (meaning my brother was trying to open the cage inside the bed of the truck so the raccoon wouldn't attack him while I watered the grass around the cage and the raccoon with the hose).
• Well it wasn't working, so Chuckles grabbed a stick to help release the cage
• and after about a million attempts (it seriously took almost thirty minutes to do this) we finally got the cage open. The raccoon just sat there :c So I sprayed it with the hose and it went running off into the woods 
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Failed again.

This is interesting...I wish I could think that way.

I don't actually have anything to say. I am at a complete loss for words right now. I don't know what to say anymore. I feel like I'm failing. I'm supposed to help. I'm supposed to be helping. Yet I feel like I am failing. I feel like everything I say is just ignored. I feel like I can't help from such a far away distance. I want to help, I really do. I don't know why I can't do anything right, but I have failed again. I just keep failing. I can't do anything right. I can't help. I can't save them. WHY CAN'T I HELP! It doesn't just bug me that I can't help, that I keep failing them. It hurts to know I am failing them. It hurts to know that I can't help them, that I can't save them. I want to help so badly, but everything that I say, it isn't helping. It isn't helping....I can't do it....It hurts so much to know that I have failed them. I don't want to fail them. I want to help.

Guatamala

Yo estoy muy inquieto para mi viaje a Guatamala! Yo estoy saliendo proximo fin de semana!
I am very restless for my trip to Guatamala. I am leaving next weekend!

So I can't wait. I really really can't wait. I want to explore the world. I want to see different cultures. And this time next week, I will be in Guatamala doing exactly that! There's going to be so much to do there and see. I am really excited, but nervous at the same time.
All the other trips that I have gone on, I have had access to talking to my family all that I want because of my cellphone. All of my trips this summer, I have found out that someone in my family has died. I am scared that someone is going to die and I won't know about it because I am so far away. I won't be able to be there for my family or anything. I won't even know about it until I get back because I won't be calling them up. I feel like I'm going to get homesick, but at the same time, I feel like I'm going to be having way too much fun to get homesick XD

Anyway.....

Yo estoy muy emocionado para mi viaje!

Swimming

Today my friends and I went to the beach :} I absolutely love swimming. It's a release of everything that is stressing me. It didn't work today though, I feel like I'm about to explode. The water wasn't deep enough, I couldn't even tread most of the time. It doesn't matter that I couldn't tread though, because hey my ankle is injured and I CAN'T tread water very well right now. I also had to hang out with my friends.
With the mood that I have been in today, I should've been swimming laps, not stopping to hang out with them. I should've been avoiding people. Instead I had to put up with my friends and act like I was happy when all I wanted to do was be alone. I had to pretend and you don't understand how exhausting it is to pretend. You don't understand how hard it's becoming to pretend that I am okay in every single way.

Tomorrow I am going back to the beach. Tomorrow I am going to swim until I am too exhausted to continue. Tomorrow I am going with my sister and HER friends, they will leave me to my own doings. I can swim. I can be free of everything. I can relax. I can feel again.

Random Google Image :}

Tell me Why

Why can't there be one day where I'm truly happy?
Why must I always have to put a fake smile on my face so that people won't ask me how I'm doing?
Why do I want to cry for no reason?
Why can't I be me?
Why does life have to suck so much?
Why must the elephant sit on the fence? :\
Why can't my depression stay the hell away from me?
Why am I upset that one person doesn't want to talk to me right now?
Why do I even have to care that that person doesn't want to talk to me?
Tell me why I have a frown on my face,
Why it feels so strange to smile fully and truly,
Why I feel like I'm a fake, a impostor,
Why I just want to wake up from this horrible nightmare but know I can't
Just Tell me WHY!

Weddings+Death

So I haven't written much recently, so I thought I would do a quick update on everything that I have done in the last week that I haven't said anything about :}

Last Saturday (July 14th) one of my favorite cousins got married. I remember I used to hang on him all the time, he has always been really tall to me and he would give me piggy back rides and everything. I was really little then. Well he finally got married XD I had a blast at his wedding, though I wish my other favorite cousins could have come out from New Hampshire, they weren't able to make it though so I had to have fun without them :c I managed....but it would've been funner with them! So anyway, on Friday the 13th, my mum got a message while we were at the wedding rehearsal. My great grandma had died.

That's what I got to do today. Today we went to her visitation/funeral. It was a lot more cheery and social than all the other visitations/funerals I have been to this summer (which has now been three total). I met a few of my "cousins." I'm not actually sure what to call them because they are my great grandma's kids's kids's kids :D so in other words her great grandkids.... I'm just going with cousins....they probably are some form of cousins right?

I'm waiting for a triple rainbow in the sky now, because there should be 3 rainbows :} The brightest for my Grandma Shirley, the 2nd brightest for my Uncle Dave, and the lightest for my (great) Grandma Faye. It might happen :}

Picture Story of Vampire Diaries

Okay, so I just watched an episode of Vampire Diaries and I wanted to replay exactly what I looked like while watching it...so here is the picture story of myself while watching Vampire Diaries XD


So Jeremy was compelled to take off his ring and go stand in the middle of the road while a hybrid ran him down. Alaric got shoved him out of the way and got hit instead. So then the hybrid comes back and is all like "I can save him just let me in your house" and then JEREMY GOES AND KILLS THE FREAKING HYBRID! I was all like "whaaaa?!?!?!" and that is what I looked like *points down*

Oh and then Alaric came back from the dead because of his nifty ring but it didn't heal him so he had some great internal bleeding :D This is what I was feeling when that happened...I was all like "Damn I want that ring"

After that there was a Damon/Elena moment, with Elena's hands covered in hybrid blood. There was lot of yelling. This is what I was feeling about the whole thing, I wanted them to kiss :} AND THEN AT THE VERY END OF THE FREAKING EPISODE THE KISSED :D

And that is the end of my picture story of my reactions. So actually what really happened was I decided to do a photo spam on a friends wall and used these pictures while telling her that's what I was looking like because of Vampire Diaries....It literally happened too :} I was greatly entertained and had to share.

Suicide Hurts

I didn't write this....someone from a Facebook page did and I thought I would pass it along....


Suicide hurts more people than you think, please don't ever consider it.


You’re sitting in your room ~ door locked ~ with a pen in your hand and a blank piece of paper infront of you. Your hand is shaking, and the tears begin again - for the third time in the past hour. ‘To my family’ you write at the top of the page, but decide it’s a bad way to begin your letter ~ your suicide letter. You try again, start over ~ again and again, but you don’t know where to begin. No one understands you; no one knows what you’re going through, you’re alone or at least that’s what you think. Nobody would care if you’re alive or not, you mean nothing to nobody.
It’s night, and you slip into bed. ’Goodbye’ you whisper into the darkness. And with that, you take your last breathe and end it all.
No body cares, right? Well you thought wrong. It’s a Tuesday the following morning, and when it’s 7:21, your mother comes and knocks on your door. She doesn’t know you can’t hear her she doesn’t know you’regone. She knocks a few more times, calling your name to open up. When there is no reply from your side of the door, she opens it and screams. She collapses on the ground while your dad rushes to your room. Your siblings have already left for school. Your very weak mother collects all the energy she’s got which is close to nothing to walk over to your bed. She leans over your dead body, crying, squeezing your hand, screaming. Your dad is trying to stay strong, but the tears escape his eyes; calling 000 or 911 with his left hand while his other one is on your mother’s back. Your mother blames herself. All those times she had said ‘no’ to you, all those times she had screamed at you, and sent you to your room over something stupid. Your father will blame himself for not being there for you when you asked for help, for being away from home at work for long. Nobody cares, right?
8:34. There’s a knock on your classroom door it’s the school principle. She looks more worried than ever. She calls the teacher to the side; all the students worried: what’s going on? The principle then later announces about your suicide. The popular girl that always called you fat and ugly is now blaming herself. The kid that would always copy your homework but treat you like crap ~ he’s blaming himself. The boy that sits behind you ~ the one that always threw things at you during class ~ he’s blaming himself too. The teacher is blaming herself - for all those times she’d scream at you for forgetting your homework, or not listening in class. People are crying, screaming, shocked, in regret of what they did. They’ll all be devastated - even the kids you’ve never talked to before. Still nobody cares about you, right?
Your siblings get home. Your mother has to tell them that you’re gone; forever. Your little sister ~ no matter how many times she’s screamed at you, told you she hated you and stole your stuff ~ always loved you, and saw you as her hero; her role model. She now starts to blame herself; why didn’t I do what she told me to do when she told me to? Why did I take her stuff even when she asked me not to? This is all my fault. Your brother gets home ~ the boy that never cries. He’s now in his room; mad at himself ~ he caused your death. All those times he’d played pranks on you. He’s punching holes in his wall, turning over things; he doesn’t know how to deal with the fact that you’re gone. Forever. Nobody cares about you, right? Right?
It has been over a month. The door to your room has been closed all this time. Everything is different now. Your brother has to be sent to anger management classes, your little sister cries everyday still waiting for you to come back. Everyday she waits for you to come back home. The popular girls have now turned anorexic. They don’t know how to deal with the pain that they’re feeling. Your father has depression; your mother hasn’t slept for nights it’s all her fault. She’s been crying and screaming every night wishing for you to come back. The boy who would always bother you dropped out of school. The boy that copied your homework now cuts. But nobody cares about you, aren’t I right?
Your mother finally decides to go clean out your room. But she can’t do it. She’s locked herself in your room for two days to try to clean up your clothes, your things. But she can’t she can’t say goodbye to you, not yet, not now. Never.
It’s your funeral. It’s a big one ~ everybody comes. No one knows what to say. The beautiful girl with the big smile is gone; you’re somewhere else. No one knows what to say, they’re all still shocked. Everyone cries, everyone misses you. They all wish you’d come back but you don’t, and you won’t.
Still think nobody cares about you? Think again. Even if people don’t show it, they care about you, they love you. If you kill yourself today or any other day you won’t know just how much you meant to people. If you kill yourself today, it stops your pain, but it pains all the ones who know you for the rest of their life. Suicide is the easy way out - but it’s the wrong choice. Life is beautiful. Yes, it does have its ups and downs everyone has their bad days. Sometimes people go through tough times in their lives like you’re probably going through now but bad times come and go. You might not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it’s there. No matter how hard life gets, never give up on yourself, or on your life.
Take a minute now, and think. If you killed yourself ~ how would the people that love you feel/go through? Can’t think of anything? Well I’ll tell you: tears, tears, and more tears. Devastation. Guilt. Pain. Broken. Regret. Miserable.
If after reading this you still feel suicidal, there are people that can help you. I’m here for you whenever you need me, and I’ll be more than happy to listen to you and try to help you feel better. There are teachers, parents, grandparents, neighbors, adults, councilors ~ they’re all there for you whenever you need them.
I just want you to remember three things: you’re beautiful, you’re not alone, and it does get better, I promise.

Ice Skating

So today, I went ice skating. I absolutely love ice skating.

I went with my cousins/uncle/aunt today along with Chuckles and Quackles (what I've taken to calling my siblings) to the ice arena. I had to drive through scary traffic (just kidding...I just don't like driving in that town). We rented skates and went out onto the ice. First I must tell you what I'm wearing on this trip...
I wore short shorts, a tank top, and a denim vest with a smexi looking hat. I looked pretty freaking crazy. Everyone else was dressed warmly because they didn't want to get cold. My hands were the only thing that got cold, then again I didn't fall down once. I'm sure that if I had fallen down I would have been in lots of pain.
It took a while for us to get used to the whole ice skating ordeal, but then we were able to skate. Chuckles was a pro at ice skating. I was greatly jealous of him. XD After we got used to skating, we played tag on the ice. Some of us were better than others, so we didn't really play very well.
It was a lot of fun though. I hope to get to go again soon, I'm trying to convince my Kewanee loves to go ice skating with me (perfect destination if they come to visit don't you think?). Next time I'll be sure to wear pants so I don't have to worry about getting uber hurt from falling down. That way I can work on my backwards skating more than I did this time XD

Toodles!

The Book of the World

As I said in the last post...I didn't read this before posting it because I don't feel like going thattttt far down memory lane...but here is the story I wrote to go along with that post all those years ago (which was 2008 just saying)




“Everyone is waging war with each other your highness. What ever are we going to do?” Cenedra, one of the many queens of the world asked.
“We will have to call court. I want all of my loyal subjects to come to the Ruby Palace in the United States. It has always been my favorite place around this place. Tell them that they are going to be required to submit all the countries that they own and that I am making some new laws. These wars are getting way out of hand,” Mab announced. Mab was the High Queen of the world.
So just to get you up to date on some stuff here is a lot of information you might like. She had control over all the other queens and kings, but sometimes they got a little out of control. That was the time that she would call a court, to settle all their disputes. So now all the country leaders were coming together. Actually, due to some weather conditions and such, only a few of the queens and kings made it to court when Mab called upon them. They were Cenedra, Kaida, Eadoin, Jaser, Ece, Taiomah, Makani, Edan, Caleb, Calandra, Jokull, Sabra, Rafiya, Bella, Qamra, Maeko, Pouria, and Kylie. There might have been a few others, but no one can remember everyone.
These people owned a lot of countries, and were waging war on each other all the time. It was mostly over land disputes, but every once in awhile they would have a fight for just the heck of it. These wars, well, they aren’t really wars, they just weren’t allowed to have any physical wars. Mab strongly disbelieves in bloody violence and what was the point when they all lived under the same ruler. She did believe in letting them solve their own problems though, that was why there was so many wars. When there became to many the court was called and peace was made, and that brings us back to this court Mab is calling.
Everyone came within a month of getting the message. It was hard to get messages to people, because birds are the fastest way to communicate with them, but eventually everyone showed up. I don’t know how they lived though, no electricity must have been really though. They couldn’t stay up reading very late, though a lot of them came up with devises to make it possible to stay up late. I am pretty sure that it wasn’t for reading though. Mab entertained them and they all had to learn about the history of the United States, since that is where court was being held this time. Oh yeah, by the way, court is held on a different country each time and everyone is required to learn about that country.
Edan was the last one the show up, he brought the bad news of the death of King Henry, which is how he became the king of England. Apparently, Henry died of old age, but I think Edan just got bored of waiting for him to die and instead of waging war, he just killed Henry for the throne.
Did I tell you who I was? Oh, no I didn’t. I am the daughter of a great king and queen. Um, I don’t think you actually need to know who I am. Do you? No, I suppose not. This is a story of my sister though. Yeah, that is all you need to know.
Right back to the story, everyone was devastated to hear the Henry had died, well some of them anyways. Mab was, but some really hated him, he was really mean to some people. He had bloody wars and it was horrible. I am glad Edan killed him if he did, because he was going to kill my best friend Makani. Makani really isn’t that important. He is Edan younger brother and not a lot of people like him.
Anyways, as I was saying everyone was devastated blah, blah, blah. This is so boring, maybe we should just write this story in 3rd person, then there wouldn’t be so many thoughts about what I think. Yeah, that is what I’ll do. Oh, by the way. In this story, Mab made up some laws before the story. It was really interesting. Some of the laws were that you can only own 5 countries and then the countries you won from a war didn’t count as your 5 countries. You can have assistances or anything else from any gender for your country, but any other rulers are not allowed to be the same gender. The rule I think is the best is that you can’t have a Prince or Princess until you are 14. That way not many people are allowed to have them. I think it is really silly that you have to own a legal document to own a fly, but that is the way Mab wants it. Okay back to the story.
So here is the story of the world after the Golden Age. That was when Mab ruled the whole world and didn’t let others take command of parts of it easily, though I do believe that Kaida and Cenedra got to rule the Philippines and Japan during this age. Oh yeah, I forgot, 3rd person. It won’t happen again. So I’ll start all over now.
 

The Book of the World (3rd Person)

 
“Everyone is waging war with each other your highness. What ever are we going to do?” Cenedra asked, one of the many queens of the world.
“We will have to call court. I want all of my loyal subjects to come to the Ruby Palace in the United States. It has always been my favorite place around this place. Tell them that they are going to be required to submit all the countries that they own and that I am making some new laws. These wars are getting way out of hand,” Mab announced.
“Okay I will send the birds out right away,” Cenedra agreed. “Oh, by the way, did I tell you that Queen Bridgette was eaten by a whale? Calandra has taken her command of the Atlantic Ocean.”
“Really? I thought that Bridgette had control of the Indian Ocean.”
“Well, she had, but before she died, Makani won that from her. He outwitted her.” Cenedra informed.
“Well, that is really intreasting, I am surprised that I wasn’t told before you. Speaking of which why wasn’t I told?”
“Message just came in today. Calandra sent it, but she is on the other side of the world and the Russians intercepted her first message. She wouldn’t even had know that, had the bird not returned to her with no message and a brand of the Russians on it. Well, I really should send these letters.” Cenedra said getting up from the table. Mab got up to and went over to her book shelf and grabbed a book as they left the room.
“Tell them that I want them to be here within the next two months. If they can’t come, then I want to know that.” Mab decided and nodded to Cenedra as she entered her quarters to read the book she had grabbed.
Cenedra sighed and continued on to the bird place. All the homing pigeons were waiting t be let out and finally, all the letters were sent out to the correct person. “It is so stupid, letting birds deliver messages. They are like our own personal slaves now.” Cenedra muttered to herself.

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Months later all of the great rulers were at the Ruby Palace in the United States. They were all sitting in the sea room, and it looked like they were under water. They sat at the octagon table of the knightessess, though not all of them were knightessess.  
“So, I have called you here today, because you have all disappointed me. The last court I called, only 3 of you showed up at the meeting. Edan, Kaida, and Taiomah, thank you for coming by the way. Anyways, you disappoint me, because you are being so mean to each other again. I was just informed by Cenedra about the death of Bridgette, but I didn’t know that you, Makani, had already won the Indian Ocean for her. You are all going through kingdoms way to fast. The people that you rule over aren’t sure who is ruling them anymore. It has to stop. So now, here we will have some, for lack of better word, debate, and decide who gets what country, but first what news do you have. Does anyone know why Henry isn’t here? Edan weren’t you at England before you came here?” asked Mab.
“Yes, I was, and I am sorry to bring you such distressing news, but since the news hasn’t reached you, I guess I have to tell you. King Henry has died. I have taken over the throne.” Edan mournfully announced.
“That is terrible news, what happened?” asked Ece.
“He died in his sleep. I don’t know if he was poisoned though. It just happened a couple of weeks before I left for here. I didn’t get to hear the results of their tests on the body, before I left. I will let you know if someone poisoned him though.”
“Funny, how he died when you were there. Don’t you think?” Jokull asked.
“Jokull, don’t even try to figure this out. I have my best people on it. Though even if you did try, I doubt you’ll find anything. You are so stupid,” Edan muttered.
“Hey!” Jokull cried. “ We are supposed to be nice.”
“That is right Edan, you really should pick on someone with the same level of smartness as you.” Cenedra joked.
“Cenedra, Edan, and Jokull, would you please be quiet. We are trying to have a meeting. Did you say that Bridgette died?” asked Kaida.
“Yes, she was eaten by a whale, Another odd consentience. That probably happened at the same time that Henry was killed. Does any one have any news on the Russians?” Mab asked.
“I think that they are getting tired of this war. They might be willing to make peace with us soon,” informed Eadoin.
“I wouldn’t count on that. My latest information says that they are trying to get some of the countries that we are leaving alone to join their side. Mab you might want to get back in the grove of traveling around your kingdom. I mean, I know that the world is really huge, but we can’t have them switching to supporting the Russians. I want this war to end; there is way to much blood being shed in this war for my liking.” Cenedra announced.
“Okay, I will remember that” Mab agreed. “We need to have some more troops go up there, I thin that the Russians are getting out of their ports and we can’t have that. I think that they are trying to convince us that they aren’t doing anything, and then killing everyone that they see as a threat,”
“So why haven’t they tried to kill you?” asked Jokull. Cenedra snorted and there was a burst of laughter around the table. “What did I say?”
“No one is stupid enough to try and kill Mab. They know if she is killed there will be a huge rebellion and they also know that they would be caught before she even died.” Bella informed.
“Shouldn’t we get back to the recording of who has what countries?” asked Ece.
“Yeah, we should, okay everyone put your counries down on the piece of paper that you have. While you do that, I want to know your opinon on these new rules that I have made up for all of you. I figure it will keep you guys peaceful for longer. Pretty soon I might as well, just keep court going all year and never let you leave.” Mab joked.
“So what are these new rules? I bet they are all really good,” Maeko betted. “You always have others best interests in mind when you make these laws.”
“That is very kind of you.” Mab replied. “Now one of the rules is wars are only verbal, as you already know, but you can be threatened. You can’t however, threaten a princess or prince. You also must have a legal document to own a elephant, whale, or fly. You can’t own a country if you are an alcoholic or drug addict and there is no whaling.”
“Wait, you have to have a legal document to own a elephant?” asked Taiomah.
“Yes, you only need one. The number of elephants and whales you own will need to be verified though.”
“What if there are to many whales to count?” Makani asked. “I mean, my ‘country’ is an ocean. There are millions of whales in there.”
“You just need one certificate if you have an ocean, but the rest of you need to verify how many you have. Now can we talk about our next line of business?”
“Wait! Did you say that we have to have a legal document to own a fly?” asked Cenedra. “If you did, I totally want one. I could call my fly Jimmy-bob, or Bob-jimmy!”
“Right, we will get you one right away. Now that was a little of track, so does anyone have anything none related to this meeting to say?” MAb inquired.
“Um, when is lunch?” Jokull questioned.
“Ugg, we aren’t ever going to get anything done, are we?” Kaida moaned. “We are going to be here forever.”
“ Oh, be quiet. We can eventually leave. Just not very soon with how everything is going. I vote that we have a break. That way Jokull can have some lunch.” Edan suggested.
“I seconded that vote. Anyone else want some food? I am staving.” Cenedra called. Everyone looked really upset about not getting anything done, but what could they do? They were rather hungry and weren’t getting anywhere. Mab sighed and handed out the rule list for everyone.
“Read all the rules during your lunch and when we get back in session tell me what you think.”
“How long is this break going to be?” Cenedra asked.
“How about,” Mab looked at her sun dial watch, “In 30 minutes.” So everyone left, except Mab, Kaida, and Cenedra, to eat lunch. Mab, Kaida, and Cenedra had food brought to them and they started to talk.
“You know, you could make this meeting easier by not interrupting Cenedra,” Kaida remarked.
“Yeah, well I really would like to own a fly. Though maybe I wouldn’t since they don’t live very long and no one should own free animals. It would be like a slave then.”
“Wow, you have decided that flies can be slaves now did you?” Kaida sarcastically stated. “What would they do for you?”
“Well, they could poison someone for me if I got really mad at someone,” Cenedra replied. :Though I wouldn’t want to do that, because then they might die and then I would have to find someone else to poison. You know what I mean right?”
“No idea, you lost me when you stated to babble.” Kaida said.
“I mean, that I can’t poison someone, because then I would have to find someone else to poison, because that person died cause I poisoned them. It really makes sense when you think about it.” Kaida nodded, trying not to laugh and Mab just kind of started to laugh.
“What? It’s not that funny,” Cenedra stated looking very confused.
“Yes it is,” Kaida laughed.
“You know this is an obweas court, you shouldn’t make fun of people,” Cenedra scowled and then started to laugh. “Though I don’t think you could survive without making fun of people.”
“Now you’re the one bullying. Mab are you really going to put up with this?” Mab sighed and looked at Kaida and Cenedra.
“Can’t you ever have a civilized conversation without bullying?” Mab inquired. Cenedra shook her head laughing and Kaida just shrugged. “Well, I do believe that the half hour is up. Let’s get back to business shall we?” Everyone was coming back into the room now, Everyone except Edan that is. I think Edan was off doing something stupid, because when he did show up he was really dirty and covered in mud and very battered looking. Whoops I did it again, sorry people. Anyways…Edan didn’t come back until later that night. Everyone was still in the meeting arguing as always. Cenedra was in the middle of all the fighting. She loved to yell at people, though she doesn’t much any more. Something made her stop. Cenedra wasn’t really yelling to make a point. She was just talking because she could.
“Well, I think that we should give out the documents we need now. I do believe that we need to get all the land in order. Everyone needs to fill out a  document and then we will know who all has a country and what the country is. I also think that Edan shouldn’t be allowed to get anymore countries. He is taking over the world,” Cenedra was saying when Edan walked in. Okay so maybe she did have something good to say, but notice how she yelled nonsense at the same time.
“Um, why are we talking about me?” Edan inquired as he took his seat.
“Wow what happened to you?” Cenedra asked, she was trying not to laugh and wasn’t succeeding. Edan looked like he had been thrown in a pig pen and had been beaten to death. “Did your piggy friends not like you? I do believe that they did a fine job at trying to kill you. Maybe I’ll help them next time they want to try.” Cenedra sneered at Edan. Edan didn’t respond and looked around the room.
“So do I get to know what we are talking about yet?”
“We were talking about filling out documents and stopping you from gaining anymore countries,” Makani stated quietly to his brother as everyone starred at Edan. “What happened to you anyways? You were right behind me on our way here and then you just vanished.”
“I met some old friends of ours and went and talked to them,” Edan whispered quietly. “Now be quiet, I seem to actually have to defend myself against that stupid girl.” Cenedra heard all of this but didn’t say anything. She just simmered quietly waiting for another time to get back at him. 
“Edan, you will have to tell me what happened later. From now until the sun goes down everyone will be filling out documents that say who owns what country. Get to work,” Mab ordered. Cenedra got up and left the room. Everyone glanced around wondering what they should do since there wasn’t any documents. When Cenedra came back though, her arms were filled with paper. She was also singing a song quietly to herself, which just happened to be when the sun goes down. Oh I should probably explain that now. You see for some reason Cenedra knew how to listen to music on radios and stuff. Which if you think about it is really weird since there wasn’t electricity. Though I guess it isn’t that weird since I’m listening to that same song too and I don’t have any electricity. Crap I forgot third person, my bad yet again. Back to the story, yet again.
Everyone filled out the forms and when the sun went down piled out of the room to go to sleep. They all had a very long day ahead of them tomorrow. 
Edan, Cenedra, Kaida, and Mab stayed behind. One the big long octagon table of the knightessess, Edan was on the opposite side of the room. Cenedra, Kaida, and Mab sat right next to each other with Mab in the middle. Mab motioned for Edan to come sit closer, and he moved three seats down. Kaida and Cenedra glared at him and he moved down so he was sitting one seat away from Kaida.
“We don’t bite you know,” Cenedra sneered. Edan didn’t even look at her and just ignored her.
Mab sighed, “Can’t you ever get along with each other?” Cenedra shrugged and sat back, shutting her big fat mouth up for the rest of the night, or at least until the meeting was over. “So what happened?”
“Well, it’s a long story,” Mab and Kaida made themselves more comfortable. “Okay, so I went out to get some food. I thought I might buy some from that cook Solemn. He always is at this palace.”
“How do you know that?” Kaida interrupted.
“Because I’ve been here before and I always buy food from him. Anyways, I found him and ordered some food. As they were making it some strange men came up and ordered the same thing as me. Solemn took one look at the man and quickly gave the food that had just finished cooking to me. I didn’t really care and just waited for him to make another one for me. Solemn didn’t though. He just ran out of the shop. The man then looked at me. No he glared at me. He had these bright eyes that kept changing colors. At first they were hazel, but then he got angry and they turned orange.”
“Orange eyes? That not strange at all,” Cenedra muttered to herself. No one heard though, so I guess you could say that she didn’t really talk. Ugg, why do I keep doing that?
“He told me to leave the store and I didn’t. I figured I should watch the shop until Solemn got back. Well I learned my lesson. If a Russian soldier tells you to leave, you should listen to what he says,” Edan laughed.
“Russian soldier?” Mab sharply repeated. Edan nodded and Kaida shuddered.
“They must have intercepted one of the messages and know that we would be here. They probably sent him to get the layout of the place. I bet the Russians are going to try and kill us, not Mab, but everyone else,” Kaida shuddered again. Cenedra smiled gleefully at the thought of a fight for death. No one saw though because for some reason she was being ignored by everyone.
“That’s nonsense. No one in their right mind would attack us here. They also wouldn’t try and kill everyone. That just isn’t right.” Mab insisted.
“They ain’t in their right mind,” Cenedra stated quietly to herself, why on earth does she keep saying things? She isn’t heard yet again by the way. I have no clue why she would want to keep talking if everyone keeps ignoring her.

Maps

I came across the maps again today. I haven't written about them I'm pretty sure, so I will now because it's a great memory.
In 8th grade, we started this thing, I'm not really sure how it started, but people started to claim countries and one of my best friends became the queen of the world. Well it went on from there, I printed out a map and people would sign their name on their countries so that no one would get mixed up on who had what country. I was like the guardian of the maps or something. It went so far that we were making up stories and such. Like, the whole world was at war with Russia because they wouldn't bow to the queen of the world. It was a great time. On the back of the map of Europe, there is even an agenda written down from the first day of December. This is what it says....

Mon- New Zealand- Queen biz
Tues- North Pole- Skiing and Snowboarding
Wed- South Pole- Ice Skating and Sledding
Thurs- South Georgia Island- Hang out with dlkjfadlskf (ex-best friend)
Fri- Madagascar and Ethiopia- Jungle hiking/ climbing
Sat- Hawaii- Volcano Swimming- get volcano proof clothes and googles..don't invite kfljal (my "twin" brother)
Sun- Pacific Ocean -Swimming with Dolphins and other stuff


We would have a great live as the leaders of the world. So anyway, that summer I promised a few of them that I would write a story to go along with the maps and I started it but never finished it. I'm going to post it in the next post depending on how long it is, I know its pretty long though because I'm not one to write short stories. I'm not even going to read what I wrote way back then, I'm just posting it...so go onto the post called "The Book of the World"

July 4th

I want to edit a picture...just one picture...but I don't have Picasa on this computer :c and I don't have downloading privileges...so instead I'm stuck with using Paint, because I'm too lazy to use Google+'s Creative Kit (which I love just so you know). This is a great picture <.< I spent SOOOO much time editing it and everything....so here it is! Oh and it's just a picture off of google as always :P I don't know who took the darn thing as I'm too lazy to find that out...but because it was such a beautiful picture before I destoryed it...I will give you the link to the website. The website being national geographic....
http://images.nationalgeographic.com/wpf/media-live/photos/000/191/cache/thunderstorms-clouds-natural-particle-accelerators_19189_600x450.jpg

So as you might be able to tell from this picture, I just wanted to wish you a happy 4th of July! Because it's the 4th of July, and well it's independence day, of course I'm going to give you a song for it and then some random facts! Let's get this show on the road!

• taxation without representation....us americans didn't have no say in that government dealio. (and yes I love my grammar skills)
• Independence Day was first celebrated in Philadelphia on July 8, 1776.
• The word ‘patriotism’ comes from the Latin patria, which means ‘homeland’ or ‘fatherland.’
• Thirty places nationwide with “liberty” in their name. Iowa has four of these places (the most out of all states)
• There is one place named “patriot” — Patriot, Indiana, with a population of 202.
• The Fourth of July was not declared a national holiday until 1941.
• More than 74 million Americans will BBQ tomorrow. (not I)
• Presidents John Adams, Thomas Jefferson and James Monroe all died on the Fourth. Adams and Jefferson died on the same day within hours of each other in 1826.
• The amount of chicken purchased the week before the holiday is 700 million pounds.
• The percentage of American homes with an outdoor grill is 87 percent. (my grill is broken :c)
• The words Under God were not added to the Pledge of Allegiance until the year 1954.

Okay I'm bored of random facts! Have another video though...

Alphabet of the animals

I am in the mood to post a thousand pictures that I find on google...so I am going to start with the letter "A" and whatever type of animal pops up first, that's the animal I'm posting pictures of! I might even have some of my own on this computer of the animal, but I highly doubt it...now lets see what cute adorable animal I am posting pictures of! It was angry birds <.< Let's see what type of pictures they have...I'm not sure that angry birds really works for this...

Aww google didn't fail me :} ANGRY BIRD!

Okay next up....the letter "B" which comes up with butterfly!

Butterflies are so pretty :} Even if these are paper...

"C" time! Of course cat would come up...

This is my picture of my stray adopted cat "Smokes"

"D" is for dragon apparently, so I'm going with a Harry Potter Dragon because I'm in a Harry Potter mood :} After this letter I'm just going to go with whatever animal comes to my mind first for each letter...Seems so much easier, plus I can choose the cute animals >:)

Hungarian Horntail

"E" is for ELK!

"F" is for legless flamingos? 'o.O

GORILLA! Say it like Tarzan would ^.^

Hippo Hippo Hippo Baby!

An Impala with it's mama :}

A Joey :P So a baby Kangaroo...that's J and K!

I'm gonna die of adorableness :}

Look a redeyed mongoose! Scary..

Natal Multimammate Mouse

baby orangutan and it's buddy tiger :}

Pangolin

Quokka...idk what that is..but awwwww

GIANT FREAKING RABBIT! 

Senegal BushBaby :} :} I love the eyes

A Gold Tiger Cub for the T...I love Gold tigers...

Unicorn baby :P

Vulture!!!!!!

Walleye

This apparently is a Xoni :} ADORABLE

Baby Yak

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST....the Letter Z!

Of course it was a Zebra!

And that concludes my alphabet for the day!

Missing Brother!

So I was on my older brother's official stalker page today, and I saw this story. It was posted just last night. I can't believe that I didn't realize he was missing! D:


Ethan Spotting: Friday, June 29th
I know that I am a little late on posting this, but I haven't had much time to tell you what I have to tell you. 
So Ethan was spotted on Friday, June 29th. His friends say that they found the car out in the woods when they went camping and it was in good working condition so they started to drive it around. Well they picked up a whole lot of people on their drive and ended up back at the park where they were camping.
I wasn't close enough to see what happened, because as the official stalker of Ethan I can't get too terribly close, but at some point during the night Ethan was given a dare. He drove the car into the lake. He hasn't been seen since. The car has been pulled out of the lake by authorities now and no body has been found.
One of the people that they picked up on their ride around swears that they saw someone swimming away from the spot the car went in, but no one else seems to have seen this.
As the official stalker of Ethan, I regret to inform you that I have lost sight of Ethan and he truly is missing.






Just kidding....my brother has just made up this story because he went camping....He's hiding out at some campsite for now XD But don't tell anyone that isn't supposed to know its just a story!

A Lamb in the Tub

I don't know how long ago I meant to put this up, but this is what happens at my house in the winter when a sheep gives birth to triplets and isn't taking care of them right. We didn't lose any sheep this year, like we thought this one that is in the tub was going to die, but it pulled through!
Though.....it did die right before fair last week. We aren't really sure why....

Boom goes the car!

This is the story I made up on my drive home from fair last night.

She was driving home after a long day of fair. She wasn’t prepared for the deer to run right into the front of her car. It wasn’t there one second and then it was, just like deer tend to do. It hit the front of her car and then flipped up. It’s head stayed logged in her car by the lights, while it’s body came up and landed hard on her windshield. It didn’t stay logged there very long as she was moving down the highway. The blow didn’t even seem to kill it! It was thrashing about on her car and then it got itself unlogged somehow and landed on the road. Not losing her cool about being in a crash, and knowing her now stalled car wouldn’t be starting again anytime soon, Jade quickly steered it to the side of the road before the momentum of driving at 65 miles per hour came to a stop. Then she just sat in the car for a minute, trying to think.

The deer she could see in her rearview mirror. It was in the middle of the road thrashing about as car after car slowed down to drive past it. Jade wished she should put on her blinkers to warn people from farther away to be careful, but her car was dead. In fact, as she looked at the front of her car, she noticed it was smoking. Then she noticed the windshield. Jade couldn’t believe that she hadn’t noticed the windshield before. There were only bits and pieces of it left, the deer had broken it, the glass scattering everywhere. As Jade looked at the glass, she realized something. There was no way that she hadn’t gotten injured in this accident, and yet she didn’t feel hurt at all.

Bringing her arms up, she looked at them closely. They were all cut up and bleeding. It didn’t look too bad. The glasses that she wore she noticed were very scratched looking. With one of her bleeding arms, she pulled down the visor to look at her face. It was also all scratched up and cuts dotted it everywhere. It was almost unnoticeable as she looked over her face because of the angle of the mirror, but not quite. Jade saw the blood coming out of her neck, and a huge piece of the windshield still protruding from her neck. Taking a sharp breath, she didn’t touch it. She knew better than to mess with it, but she needed help. That was sure, she couldn’t take care of that on her own.

What was she supposed to do in this situation? Obviously she had to call the police, and she would need a ride home, but which was she supposed to call first. Her mom was a nurse, so she could tell her what to do about her neck, but then her mom would be all worried about her. Her neck didn’t appear that badly. Then again, why would her mother be worried about her? It wasn’t like her mom actually cared about her after what happened the day before.  Making up her mind, Jade just called them in numerical order. Her mother’s phone number of course was last because it was the one with the most numbers. Her eyes stayed focused on her neck as she waited patiently for an answer.

“Hello,” Jade immediately said when someone picked up on the other end. “I was just in a car crash with a deer. Just me and the deer mind you, no other cars were involved other than mine.  My car is dead, I don’t think I will be able to get it fixed easily with all the damage done to it.”

“Ma’am where are you?” the operator interrupted Jade quickly.

“Oh I’m between the race track and the dump on highway 461.” Jade stated. “So I know that you probably want to know all that’s going down here. Let me just get on that. I wouldn’t have called quite so quickly, I probably would’ve waited until I checked on the deer, maybe tried to get it out of the middle of the road, but I am injured and I don’t feel it. I mean, I can see my injuries and know that I should be feeling them. I can move my arms, and my legs, which I suppose is a good thing. There is glass everywhere because my windshield broke under the force of the deer’s body slamming into it. I didn’t think anything could break the windshield of a car. I mean they are so strong. Oh and my engine is smoking. I can see it through the nonexistent window, though it is hard to see because of my glasses. My glasses got all scratched up in the crash.”

“Ma’am,” the operator interrupted again, “help is on the way, what I need to know right now is are you still in the car?”

“Yes, of course I am. I don’t want to move too much in case I injure myself some more. I mean I won’t be able to tell if I hurt myself anymore because I can’t feel any of the pain,” Jade started again. She was surprising herself with her need to talk. Normally Jade was just one of those people that sat around letting others talk for her because she was socially awkward. This time though, she felt like she should be talking. She didn’t want to stop talking.

“What’s your name? and you need to get out of the car and walk back to where the deer is. It’s okay, you won’t get injured anymore than you already are. Just carefully unbuckle yourself and get out.”

“My name is Jade Merco,” Jade replied. “Are you sure you want me to get out of the car? It is probably dangerous for me to go check on the deer.”

“Jade I need you to get as far away from the car as possible right now. If your car is smoking like you say it is, it could quite possibly exploded. We don’t want you near it if that happens, so just go back toward the deer.”

“Okay,” Jade replied. She did as the operator said, with a pause in her talking while she followed orders. As she walked away from the car, she could feel herself dragging forward, like it was hard to walk. She couldn’t figure out why she felt so sluggish though. “Wow this is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I mean, sure I am really tired after a hard days work, but I didn’t realize I was this tired. OH! I hear the sirens.”

“Alright, I’m going to hang up now then, I have to take other calls for people too. I hope that you are all right Jade. Let the officers help you as much as they can.”

“I can’t believe they got here so fast. They must not have been very far away,” Jade kept talking into her phone as the line went dead. The sirens weren’t from a police car as she had originally thought it would be from, but instead it was from an ambulance. The ambulance pulled itself between her and the car and then the EMTs came hopping out and hurried over to her. Jade kept walking towards the struggling deer though. It was like she didn’t completely notice the EMT’s were there as she walked.

“Jade Merco,” she heard her name being spoken as a hand wrapped itself around her wrist. Jade looked warily over at the EMT, before trying to pull away.

“I called the police, not the EMT’s,” Jade stated and tried to keep walking towards the deer. “I have to listen to the operator. I was told to go check on the deer.”

“The deer can wait for the police to show up. We need to get you some help first Jade,” one of the EMT’s stated, not letting Jade walk on.

“I have to check on the deer for the operator!” Jade raised her voice slightly. Another EMT came into her vision as she glared at the first.

“How about you come with me back to the ambulance and Terri goes and checks on your deer?” the EMT suggested quietly. Jade just stared blankly at him for a second and then panic hit her.

“Oh my god, I’m going to have to get in the ambulance aren’t I? I can’t go anywhere in one of those. I can’t get in one,” Jade whispered quickly, shaking her head back and forth quickly. The EMT named Terri grabbed a hold of her face and held her head still.

“You don’t have to get in it right now. We need you closer to the ambulance though for us to check you over and patch you up. Just go with Lucian and he will patch you up bright as new. How about you call someone close by to come hang out with you while you get patched up,” Terri quickly advocated. Jade nodded in agreement and started to dial a number without thinking much about it.

“Hello Galena!” Jade greeted when one of her best friends from the race track answered her call. She didn’t actually want to talk to Galena, but she wanted to talk to someone else that she had left at the race track. She didn’t have his number though, so she was hoping that Galena could help her out. It wasn’t that she was avoiding talking to Galena or anything; she just didn’t want Galena to see her like this. Galena was really not good in situations like these, so it was better to just tell her once Jade was all cleaned up and all better. “Galena, before you ask why I am calling, I was just wondering if Zakiya was around still. I need to talk to him.”

“Sure, he actually just came back here looking for you. He wanted to see if you wanted to go down to the race track with him to watch the rest of the races since his girlfriend ditched him.” Galena handed her cell phone over to Zakiya without further questions.

“Jade, why are you trying to get a hold of me?” he asked almost immediately. He was surprised that she had even wanted to talk to him in the first place after spending the day with his girlfriend and him. He had picked on her the whole day they had been hanging out to amuse his girlfriend.

“You can’t tell Galena why I called you,” Jade quickly stated. “I think she jinxed it. Right before I left she told me to drive safe and watch out for the deer. I swear the deer wasn’t there until suddenly it was breaking my car’s windshield. Anyway, the EMTs have decided that I need someone to hang out with me while I get patched up and I’m closer to the race track than I am to home. Do you want to hang out with me?” Jade asked.

“Um, sure I’ll go find him for you,” Zakiya replied instead of answering her question. “Let me just get your number from Galena and then I will go find him and have him call you.” Then he hung up on her. Jade just stared at her phone.

“Hey! Ouch!” she suddenly squeaked, turning her gaze to Lucian. “What the hell are you doing?”

“Sorry,” Lucian smiled. “I was told you couldn’t feel pain, but I guess you are coming out of your shock now. You are about to be in a lot of pain. Just so you know, we are going to have to take you to the hospital to get that glass out of your neck. We can’t do it ourselves.”

“I can’t go in an ambulance. I’ll just get myself there,” Jade quickly replied as her phone started to ring. She looked down and saw an unknown number trying to get a hold of her. To avoid talking to Lucian, she answered the phone call. “Hello?”

“Hey Jade, Zakiya told me that I had to call you. He wouldn’t leave me alone until I called you,” a familiar voice said from the other end of the line.

“Cruzito!” Jade greeted warmly. “Hi! I guess Zakiya is squeamish around blood. Cruzito you’re my new best friend right?”

“I suppose I am, why?” he asked, a smile twitching at his lips as she talked. Zakiya already told him that Jade had been in a car crash and needed someone to talk to while she was patched up, but he was curious on what she wanted form him still. She could have asked Galena for his number instead of going through Zakiya to get to him. Now that his suspicion of Zakiya not wanting to do whatever she had asked him had been confirmed, he wanted to know what had been asked of him.

“Well, the EMTs told me that someone should come hang out with me while they clean me up. Did Zakiya tell you that a deer ran into my car as I was driving home? I can still see it thrashing about. Though Terri, one of the EMTs, managed to drag it out of the middle of the road. I think Terri probably should have just left the deer alone. She could have gotten really hurt from it, but she moved it anyway. It doesn’t look like she got hurt either.”

“Jade,” Cruzito gently interrupted her. “I’ll come hang out with you on one condition.”

“Yay! What is it? I’ll do anything. Terri and Lucian are being really mean. Well Lucian is, Terri isn’t exactly over here yet. I’m sure once she gets over here she will be really mean to me as well. They won’t let me go talk to the police officer that has just arrived. I gave him permission to go through my car for my papers and license since I’m also not allowed to go near my car. I mean, it isn’t smoking anymore, why can’t I go near it?”

“Jade?” Cruzito interrupted again. “I can’t tell you my condition if you don’t let me talk.” He knew that she never talked this much, even though he had just met her this last week. He had spent part of the day in the concessions stand with her alone, and knew that she didn’t talk unless spoken to and even then it was hard to get her to talk.

“Oh right sorry, Lucian thinks I’m just talking because I’m in shock or something. So what is your condition?”

“My condition is, I need to know where you are,” Cruzito stated warmly.

“Oh yeah, forgot about that part. Okay, all you have to do is get on the highway and drive towards the dump. You know where the dump is right? You won’t be able to miss me. I’m sitting outside the ambulance on the bumper of it. They keep trying to get me to go in it, but I can’t go in one. That just isn’t right. Ambulances are for injured people, and I’m not injured. I just have some minor cuts and bruises.”

“Jade,” Cruzito interrupted her yet again. “Do you want me to stay on the phone with you while I drive or are you going to be good for a few minutes?” He would prefer not to be on the phone and driving, but he didn’t want to just hang up on Jade when she obviously was distressed.

                “I’ll be fine, but hurry because Lucian is making me drink blood bags because I’ve lost so much blood.” Jade replied. Lucian was giving her a glare when she was considering Cruzito’s offer and knew that Lucian would give her a hard time if she didn’t’ get off the phone soon. “I’ll see you in a bit!” Then she hung up on him, hoping that he actually was going to come.

 For the most part, Lucian had finished cleaning her up, other than the glass chunk in her neck that he refused to do anything about. He was dead set on taking her to the hospital for that one. She had also lost a lot of blood, so he didn’t want to let her go home without getting something in her. For some reason she was scared of getting in the ambulance. He didn’t want to force her in if someone was close by that might be able to talk her into getting in. He just hoped that this person would get here fast so that he could hook Jade up to a blood bag. If he wasn’t going to take her to the hospital for her neck, he would have given her something to eat, but he was taking her whether she liked it or not as soon as her friend showed up.

They sat there for about 10 minutes before a truck pulled up behind the dead deer.  That’s what Jade thought at least. The deer could very well have been alive still, it just wasn’t thrashing about anymore. Terri had long since left the deer and was in the ambulance doing something now. Jade figured that Terri was in there washing her hands after touching the deer, she didn’t know for sure though. When the truck stopped, Jade stood up wanting to go towards it. The truck looked a lot warmer than the cold summer air was and she was ready to go home.

Lucian held her back as Cruzito walked towards them however, not wanting Jade to do anything that could bump the glass farther into her neck. Jade just shot him a glare as she waited for Cruzito to reach them. She watched as he looked her over, his eyes staying on her neck on his approach.

“That doesn’t look like a little cut or bruise,” he told her with a frown. Jade just shrugged, not replying. “So you are done talking now that I’m here? Is that really how this is going to go down Jade? I thought we were better friends that than,” he fake pouted, his lips hinting at a smile.

“We only met this week,” Jade pointed out. “How can we be better friends than that. I will give you the benefit of the doubt on that one though, since we only met this week,” she finally replied, putting a bit of a flirt into her response.  “Can you do me a favor now that you are here?”

“What coming here wasn’t enough of a favor?” he teased, stopping half a car’s length from her.

“No it wasn’t,” Jade smiled. “My favor is that I need you to tell Lucian here that he can get this chunk of glass out of my neck just fine without needing to take me to the hospital.” A smile stayed trained on her face the whole time. She was starting to wish that she had some painkillers though. The pain of her injuries was slowly starting to wash over her and she was not enjoying it. She wasn’t going to let anyone know how much pain was starting to come though. Cruzito could tell though. He could see in her eyes the amount of pain that she was feeling as she tried to stay strong and not cry.

“If Lucian says you need to go to the hospital then you need to,” Cruzito replied easily, knowing that it was true. EMTs know best in situations like these, even if she wanted to deny it.

“No, no, no,” Jade shook her head rapidly, wincing slightly as she did so. Cruzito quickly placed his hands on either side of her face, forcing her to stop moving her head. “I can’t go in that thing. I can’t go in that thing,” she repeatedly stated, a fearful expression on her face.

“Nothing is going to happen to you in the ambulance. I’ll go with you okay?” Cruzito offered quietly when he had her full attention. “I promise you will be perfectly safe in the ambulance.”

“Why should I trust you? I only met you today!” Jade hissed at him, her panic still clearly visible. It had slightly lessened at the thought of someone that she somewhat knew being there if she was forced into the ambulance.

“You can trust me just like you trust Lucian to fix you all up,” Cruzito assured her. “I’m not going to hurt you or let the ambulance hurt you. So why don’t you get in while I go lock my truck up and we will be on our way?”

“Don’t forget to tell your girlfriend what you are doing then!” Jade called after him as he turned to walk back to his car. He flipped her off over his shoulder, knowing just as well as she did that his girlfriend was likely to skin him alive for ditching her to take Jade to the hospital. Lucian followed Cruzito to his truck while Terri ushered Jade into the ambulance. Jade put up a fight though and refused to get in still, so Terri decided to wait until Cruzito came back.

“She says she’s only known you for a day and yet she called you?” Lucian questions. Lucian and Cruzito actually knew each other, since Lucian used to go to Cruzito’s school. Even though Lucian was at least five years older than Cruzito, they still had been friends back in school and still were somewhat friends.

“Yeah we worked the concessions stand today at the race track together during the lunch rush before my girlfriend dragged me off to watch the races,” Cruzito smirked. “Mel was not pleased that I was working alone with Jade.”

“Well thanks for coming man, we don’t want to force her into the ambulance when she is flat out refusing, in case it injures her more, but she really does need to get to the hospital. She’s lost a lot of blood and we aren’t sure how far in the glass is and how much damage it has done. It’s better to take it out when we have all the equipment we could possibly need.”

“Aye captain,” Cruzito rolled his eyes. It totally wasn’t already obvious that he was needed here rather than having his girlfriend hanging on his arm. He locked his truck and grabbed his jacket from the passenger’s seat before they went back to the ambulance.

“She still won’t get in,” Terri informed them upon their return and Cruzito turned his gaze to Jade’s panicked face.

“Let’s go Jade, the sooner you get in the sooner you can get out,” Cruzito commanded gently, taking her hand and leading her towards the ambulance. Jade followed hesitantly, but let him take her to it. It was when they reached it that they came to the problem. No matter what he said, she just wouldn’t get in herself.

“I can’t go in there, I can’t go in there, I can’t go in there,” Jade whispered over and over as Lucian and Terri tried to reason with her. Cruzito just sat with his legs hanging out of the ambulance as he held onto Jade’s hand. Finally he got annoyed with Terri and Lucian’s persistent yammering at Jade to get in and he just pulled her closer to him by her hand.

“Jade, look at him,” he ordered quickly. “If you don’t get in this ambulance this second, I’m going to leave you to do this on your own and don’t think for a minute that they will give up on getting you in this ambulance. What do I have to do to get you in here? Why are you so scared of it?”

“Please,” Jade begged, trying to pull her hand away from him. “ I can’t go in there.”

“Why? Give me one good reason why you can’t get in this ambulance,” Cruzito demanded, glaring at her. He was annoyed with her insistence at not getting in.

“I can’t tell you,” Jade whispered loud enough for him to hear, but not for Lucian and Terri to hear.

“If you don’t have a good reason then you are going to get in right now,” he stated, still glaring at her. She had tears in her eyes as she tried to reason with him. She didn’t tell him the reason she couldn’t get in the ambulance was that last year she had been in one. Yesterday she had been in one because her brother had been injured in a freak accident. He had died in the ambulance. Sure she was hours away from where this freak accident had happened and this wasn’t the same ambulance, but she still couldn’t bring herself to get in an ambulance again.

Her parents had taken her to a car show yesterday and were examining what an old ambulance had looked like. They had tried to get her to look at it with her, but she wouldn’t even go near it at first. Eventually she had gone to it, but it had taken such an effort and made a huge scene in the parking lot that the security had asked that Jade be removed from the car show. Her parents hadn’t taken kindly to being kicked out of the car show, but they understood why Jade had been so scared. They were in the process of finding a therapist to help her, but hadn’t found a good one yet.

“I can’t tell you,” she sobbed quietly. “I can’t go in there.”

“Have you told your parents what happened yet?” Cruzito asked suddenly, trying to get her mind off what was required of her.

“They won’t care. They are too busy to care about anything to do with me right now. They hate me. They absolutely hate me,” she managed to choke out, still being too quiet for Lucian or Terri to hear her. As she spoke those words, her eyes closed, trying to hold in the tears. Cruzito took the opportunity to stand up and pull her into the ambulance with him. She didn’t even react right away.

                “How about I call them and tell them what has happened?” Cruzito gently offered her, as Lucian and Terri jumped in and quietly closed the door. Terri climbed up to the front and got in the driver’s seat while Lucian and Cruzito guided Jade to lay down on the stretcher that was in the ambulance and secured her down. Then Cruzito buckled himself into a seat and Lucian did the same. Terri turned the lights and sirens on and they were off.

                Jade’s eyes flew open when she heard the sirens and she looked frantically around. She started to struggle to move, when Cruzito took her hand in his, squeezing tightly to get her attention. Her eyes shot to his in a frantic movement. He couldn’t believe how much panic there was now in her eyes. He couldn’t even tell that she was in a lot of pain anymore with the panic overcrowding everything else. He was sure that Jade didn’t even feel her injuries at all anymore because of her panic.

                “Jade, do you want me to call them for you and tell them to meet us at the hospital?” Cruzito offered again. Jade just nodded in response, unable to say anything in her panicked state. “Jade calm down, nothing is going to happen to you,” he ordered in a gentle reassuring voice as he took her phone out of her hand. He scrolled through her numbers until he came across her mom’s number and then he called it.

When a grumpy voice answered with a snappy “What!” Cruzito just raised his eye brows at Jade, who was still staring at him. “Hello Mrs Merco,” he greeted. “ I am just calling to inform you that your daughter is being taken to the nearest hospital right now after a car crash.”

“Please tell me she isn’t being taken in an ambulance,” Mrs. Merco sighed. Cruzito could just imagine Jade’s mom pinching the bridge of her nose as she said it.

“As a matter of fact she is,” Cruzito replied. “It took a whole lot of convincing to get her to get in. Is there a reason that you know of why she is a state of panic right now?”

“Of course there is you idiot! Her brother died in one last year! She was the one that had ridden in the ambulance with him when he died. Ever since then, she has been completely terrified of ambulances. We didn’t realize until yesterday at an old car show how bad her fear was though. She won’t be calm for hours now. I’m not sure how she will react to going to the hospital either. I’m on my way there now. Who am I speaking to by the way? You don’t sound like one of those damn EMTs.”

“I’m one of her friends from the race track,” Cruzito replied with conviction.

“Okay, well just be warned that she will probably not handle the hospital well at all. I think the ambulance will be the worse of the two, but I’m not positive so be warned. I’m on my way,” with that Mrs. Merco hung up, calling her husband as she grabbed her keys and raced away from her house in a hurry to get to her daughter.

Cruzito looked down at Jade, handing back her phone quietly. “You aren’t going to die in here Jade,” he quietly stated. Jade’s eyes filled with tears when she realized what her mom had told him. The tears quickly overflowed and started to run down her cheeks. She was so scared of being in the ambulance right now, but she didn’t say anything as she shook her head in denial of whatever her mother had said.

                “Your mom is on her way to the hospital. She says you’re more than likely to panic there as well,” Cruzito may have been talking to Jade still, but he was saying it more so for Lucian’s information than hers. “Is that true?”

                Jade took a minute before replying with a dead expression on her face. “I promise I will not panic at the hospital as long as I get out of this thing I will not panic.” Her voice getting quieter as she spoke until it was too quiet for Lucian and Cruzito to hear. They just left it at that though because they had arrived at the hospital by then.

                “Well it’s your lucky day then,” Cruzito smiled, “we have arrived at the hospital, let’s get you out of here.” Jade was rushed out of the ambulance on the stretcher even though she said she could walk just fine. She was rushed to the emergency room and into a surgery room where the glass shard was removed and they realized just how deep it had gone. It was lucky she had been taken to the hospital, or there wouldn’t have been a chance for her to live. Now the question was, would she survive the surgery or not.