Me Gustas Cuando Callas/I like you When You are quiEt

Pablo Neruda Me Gustas Cuando Callas Me gustas cuando callas porque estas como ausente, y me oyes desde lejos, y mi voz no te toca. Parece que los ojos se te hubieran volado y parece que un beso te cerrara la boca. Como todas las cosas estan llenas de mi alma emerges de las cosas, llena del alma mia. Mariposa de sueno, te pareces a mi alma, y te pareces a la palabra melancolia. Me gustas cuando callas y estas como distante. Y estas como quejandote, mariposa en arrullo. Y me oyes desde lejos, y mi voz no te alcanza: dejame que me calle con el silencio tuyo. Dejame que te hable tambien con tu silencio claro como una lampara, simple como un anillo. Eres como la noche, callada y constelada. Tu silencio es de estrella, tan lejano y sencillo. Me gustas cuando callas porque estas como ausente. Distante y dolorosa como si hubieras muerto. Una palabra entonces, una sonrisa bastan. Y estoy alegre, alegre de que no sea cierto. I Like You When You Are Quiet I like you when you are quiet because it is as though you are absent, and you hear me from far away, and my voice does not touch you. It looks as though your eyes had flown away and it looks as if a kiss had sealed your mouth. Like all things are full of my soul You emerge from the things, full of my soul. Dream butterfly, you look like my soul, and you look like a melancoly word. I like you when you are quiet and it is as though you are distant. It is as though you are complaining, butterfly in lullaby. And you hear me from far away, and my voice does not reach you: let me fall quiet with your own silence. Let me also speak to you with your silence Clear like a lamp, simple like a ring. You are like the night, quiet and constellated. Your silence is of a star, so far away and solitary. I like you when you are quiet because it is as though you are absent. Distant and painful as if you had died. A word then, a smile is enough. And I am happy, happy that it is not true.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

I just happened to be stumbling and I stumbled upon this link....http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/health/article-23809323-life-tastes-better-than-skinny-feels.do

I only read the first part of it and I'm just a little jealous of this person....she weighed less than a four year old does and it took her less than a year to get there D:

Oh and I just wanted to say...I got my story printed :D its of course a proof copy of it...but still...i have a printed version of my story in the mail on its way to me :D I'm thrilled about such a thing....

My Sister's Guardian Angel: Journal of Clarity Maybelle Em.....That's my story :D it's the best story :) I have two new story ideas. One is Child Snatchers and the other is Dog Match...Dog Match isn't as good though because it doesn't have a set plot yet. I'm evolving my characters from other stories with it though so it will eventually.....unless trying to find a place in the world can be the plot :\

A side note...if you need any music to listen to randomly....http://rain.nxe7.com/
Found it on Stumbleupon and I'm loving it :)

Random survey like quiz thingy!

1. Your boy side
[X] you love hoodies.
[x] you love jeans.
[X ] dogs are better than cats.
[ X] it’s hilarious when people get hurt.
[X ] shopping is torture
[X] sad movies suck
[] you own a car racing game.
[x] you played with hot wheels cars as a kid.
[] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[] you owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega.
[] you used to be obsessed with power rangers.
[x] you have watched sports on tv.
[ X] gory movies are cool.
[] you go to your dad for advice.
[] you own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] you used to collect hockey cards.
[X] baggy sweats are comfy to wear.
[X] it’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colours.
[X] you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[X] sports are fun.
[x] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth.
[x] you sleep with your socks on at night.
[x] you have fished at least once.
2. Your girl side
[] you love to shop.
[X] you wear eyeliner.
[x] you wear the color pink
[x] you go to your mom to talk.
[X] you consider cheerleading a sport.
[] you hate wearing the color black.
[] you like going to the mall.
[] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] you like wearing jewelry.
[X] you cried watching the notebook.
[] dresses are a big part of your wardrobe.
[] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] you don’t like the movie star wars.
[] you are/were in gymnastics.
[] it can take you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[x] you smile a lot more than you should.
[] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] you care about what you look like.
[] you like wearing dresses when you can.
[] you like wearing high heel shoes.
[X] you used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] you like putting make-up on others.
[] you like being the star of everything.
[] pink is one of your favorite colors.
3. Appearance
[] i am shorter than 5′5″.
[X ] i have many scars.
[] i tan/burn easily.
[X] i wish my hair was a different color.
[X] i have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[x] i want a tattoo.
[x] i am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] i’ve had/have braces.
[] i’ve been told i’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[] i have more than two piercings.
[x] i want piercings in places besides my ears.
4. Experiences
[X] i’ve gotten lost in my city.
[X] i’ve seen a shooting star.
[X]  i’ve wished on a shooting star.
[] i’ve seen a meteor shower.
[X] i’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] i’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] i’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] i’ve been to a casino.
[ ] i’ve been skydiving.
[] i’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[] i’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] i’ve crashed a car.
[x] i’ve been skiing.
[x] i’ve been in a musical.
[x] i’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[] i’ve seen the northern lights.
[] i’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] i’ve played a prank on someone.
[] i’ve ridden in a taxi.
[] i’ve seen the rocky horror picture show.
[] i’ve eaten sushi.
[] i’ve been snowboarding.
5. Relationships
[x] i’m single.
[] i’m in a relationship.
[ ] i’m engaged.
[ ] i’m married.
[x] i miss someone right now.
[ ] i’ve gotten divorced.
[x] i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.
[x] i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.
6. Honesty/crime 
[x] i’ve done something i promised someone else i wouldn’t.
[x] i’ve done something i promised myself i wouldn’t.
[] i’ve snuck out
[x] i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.
[x] i’ve cheated while playing a game.
[] i’ve ran a red light.
[] i’ve witnessed a crime.
[] i’ve been in a fist fight.
[] i’ve been arrested.
7. Death and suicide
[] i’m afraid of dying.
[x] i hate funerals.
[X] i’ve seen someone/something dying.
[x] someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
[X] i’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] i’ve written a eulogy for myself.
8. Random
[] i can sing well
[] i’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[] i open up to others easily.
[] i watch the news.
[x] i don’t kill bugs.
[x] i sing in the shower.
[] i am a morning person.
[] i paid for a cell phone ring tone.
[] i am a sports fanatic.
[x] i twirl my hair.
[] i care about grammar.
[ ] i have “?”’s in my screen name.
[] i’ve copied more than 30 cd’s in a day.
[] i bake well.
[x] my favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[X] i would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] i like martha stewart.
[X] i laugh at my own jokes.
[X] i eat fast food weekly.
[] i’ve not turned anything in and still got an a in a certain class.
[] i can’t sleep if there is a spider/cockroach in the room.
[] i am ticklish.
[X] i love white chocolate.
[] i bite my nails.
[x] i’m good at remembering faces.
[] i’m good at remembering names.
[] i’m good at remembering dates.
[X] i honestly have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
[X] all my answers were totally honest.

o.o

*sigh* Nathan

Today was the visitation for yet another freshy, Nathan. He was such a great kid. I mean as of recent years (you know when I started to pull outta society and left them jocks be) I have not actually talked to him, but I'm going to miss him. I used to talk to him sometimes and I was so used to seeing him in the hall everyday between classes. I saw you today, and I can't say that it helped me get over you leaving or anything. I'm still in denial. <3 love you Nathan.

Don't be afraid to be yourself:

Reblog and bold what applies to you.

• I’m loud.
• I’m sarcastic.
• I cry easily. 
• I have a bad temper.
• I’m easy to get along with.
• I have more enemies than friends.
• I’ve smoked.
• I drink coffee.
• I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

• I wear makeup.
• I wear contacts. 
• I wear glasses.
• I have braces.
• I change my hair color often.
• I have a piercing.
• I have small feet.

Relationships:

• I’m in a relationship right now.
• I’m single.
• I’m crushin’.
• I’ve missed an ex before.(not anymore)
• I’m always scared of being hurt.
• I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
• I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. 
• I’ve been in love more than two times.
• I believe in love at first sight.

Friendships:

• I have a best friend.
• I have at least ten REAL friends. 
• I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
• I’ve beaten up a friend.
• I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
• I can trust at least five people with my life. 
  

Experiences:

• I’ve taken a bus.
• I’ve taken a school bus.
• I’ve made a speech.
• I’ve been in some sort of club.
• I’ve won an award.
• I’ve spent 24 hours straight on the computer. 

Music:

• I listen to R&B.
• I listen to pop.
• I listen to techno.
• I listen to rock. 
• I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
• I download music.
• I buy CDs.

Television:

• I spend at least six hours a day watching television.  
• I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
• I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
• I’ve seen and liked America’s Next Top Model.

Family Life:

• I get along with both of my parents. 
• My biological parents are still together. 
• I have at least one brother.
• I have at least one sister.
• I’ve been kicked out of the house.
• I’ve ran away from home.
• I’ve sworn at my parents. 
• I’ve made my parents cry.
• I’ve lied to my parents.
• I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
• I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
• I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.

Hair:

• I’ve had streaks.
• I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
• I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
• I’ve had blonde streaks.
• I’ve had been blonde.
• I’ve had black hair.
• I’ve been a ginger.
• I’ve been light brown.
• I use conditioner.
• I've curled my hair
• I've straightened my hair

Do you Care about other People's Feelings

Quiz Created by kirbygal42 on quizilla.teennick.com

 ANSWER!!!!!

You care a lot!

You really care about other people's feelings. Thats a great quality to have because people tend to like people like you. Just make sure you get to speak your mind somethimes too.

Firey Quotes

Haven't posted in awhile. The third suicide in the last 7 months happened at our school just recently so I'm not up to talking. Jake, Tyler, Nathan watch out for each other now that you are all together. Love you all <3

“Fire is never a gentle master”
“Wood already touched by fire is not hard to set alight”
“Among the notable things about fire is that it also requires oxygen to burn - exactly like its enemy, life. Thereby are life and flames so often compared.”
"Fire is the most tolerable third party”
“Success is not the result of spontaneous combustion. You must first set yourself on fire.”
“Love is the Fire of Life; it either consumes or purifies”
“A child is not a vase to filled but a fire to be lit”
“Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.”
“Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses.”
“Neither fire nor wind, birth nor death can erase our good deeds”
“Remember in elementary school you were told that in case of fire you have to line up quietly in a single file from smallest to tallest? What is the logic in that? What, do tall people burn slower?”
“Life is a flame that is always burning itself out, but it catches fire again every time a child is born”
“The most powerful weapon on earth is the human soul on fire.”

“Love is the only fire that is hot enough to melt the iron obstinacy of a creatures' will”
“When a heart is on fire, sparks always fly out of the mouth.”
“There may be a great fire in our soul, yet no one ever comes to warm himself at it, and the passers-by see only a wisp of smoke.”
You can hide fire, but what of the smoke?
The hand that kindles cannot quench the flame.
The more fire is covered up, the more it burns.

The most tangible of all mysteries-fire.
There can no great smoke arise, but there must be some fire, no great report without great suspicion.
There is no smoke without fire.
Talent is a flame. Genius is a fire.
The fire which warms us at a distance will burn us when near.

Oh and here's a horrible video audio thing that I made....it's really bad 

Came to My Rescue

*Is mad because everything I just typed in disappeared because firefox crashed on me*

In short....I fell down the stairs today and 2 of my friends (the ones I told) (Kydi and Dyl) both laughed at me....Guys are mean I must say.

I have a poem that I'm going to put up....eventually...I'm mad at blogger right now so I'll do it some other time :P

Have some pictures of natural disasters!

O.O+random pictures

Random big eyes!!!!!!!!!! well this weekend is prom at my school so Ive been listening to all the girls complain this week about how hungry they are because they are starving themselves to fit into their dresses. They are wimps....Hunger Pangs are for the strong, complaining for the weak, eating is a sin. One of these days I might have something to say....but I don't really. Right now I'm reading Columbine(still been reading for like a month at least) and it kinda keeps me outta the mood to do anything really. It's a depressing book...really it is.
Oh gosh I'm trying to do two things at once and it's not working! Let's add a third thing in just to make this even more impossible :P I can't like my youtube subscriptions because I used a different email than this one so I have to log in and out in order to do just a thing (BORING) so I guess I'll just deal with not liking stuff.

Random thinspiration pictures ^.^
Lolz I can hear my bros bird singing to my music

birdy looks like tht...named Cracker! cracka....crack...

FBI Kitty Cats Story

"We never get a choice on our new roommates," complained one of the Aaron twins. The one with brownish red hair laughed and started looking through the flies. Black-haired Aaron looked over the other Aaron's shoulder. "If we're going to do this we better get relocated afterwards and I want a new name. This Aaron thing will confuse..."the black haired kid checked the folder of the girl," Maeana." he pronounced her name slowly, like he was unsure of how to pronounce it.
"Well you are called Wreck at school," the other Aaron suggested.
"Fine I'm Reck, with an R," the black haired Aaron announced, changing his name that was on a post-it note on the folder to Reck Leonard. "Let's get out of here." and the two boys shut the light off and left the room. Reck took the lead and had them on the main floor of the building before anyone even noticed them, but then a man caled out to them. Reck being the one with the biggest jacket, hid the folder in his jacket and turned around. Aaron pulled out a lunch bag and they both walked towards the man.
"Hey Rein," Aaron greeted his foster father. Reck nodded, knowing not to say anything. Reck and Rein just didn't get along. "Morgan wanted us to bring you your lunch that you had forgot." Rein looked the boys up and down then motioned them to follow him. He lead them into his office and told them to take a seat. There was an awkward silence as the boys sat and set the lunch on the desk.
"Morgan doesn't know you're here," Rein solemnly stated glaring at Reck.
"Yes she does. She told us to bring you your lunch," Reck growled angerly, just Rein talking pissed Reck off.
"Today's Monday father. Mother is shopping," Aaron cut in quickly. He knew Reck well enough that he could sense when REck was going to lose it. Rein regarded Aaron with a shrug and went back to work. REck and Aaron hurried out of his office. When Reck was outside he went beserk and ran off. Aaron sat down on the curb and waited for a while.
On the outside the sign on the building said Protecting the environment for a better tmro and a bright future. The funny thing about the logo was according to the sign, the company was a logging company. The building was 21 stories tall and had a helicopter pad on the roof. The public thought it was really just for quick transportation.
After about 5 minutes Reck returned with a smile on his face. They both walked to a car that was parked in front of the building and Reck quickly broke into the car, getting into the drivers seat. On the dash there was papers for renting a car and REck threw them out the window. Aaron hesitated before hopping into the passengers seat and waited for Reck to hotwire the car.
"One of these days you're going to get caught Aaron." Aaron mumbled as the car started and Reck shifted into gear and sped away from the building.
"I'm Reck now and when I get caught I'm taking you down with me." The boys laughed and REck put some heavy metal music on Not after remarking that the logging company was going to kill them though for stealing one of their sucky cars. That made Aaron laugh even harder and Reck had to wait a few minutes before being able to talk again. "When she arrives, you try and be friends with her. I don't want to do this; i just want to be relocated. Rein is going to get me in so much trouble soon. I don't know why we were put here anyways." REck was complaining, as always about his living situation and not really paying any attention to where he was driving. Aaron would occasionally break his rant to tell Reck to turn or something. Eventually the two boys pulled into a schoolyard and Aaron raced off to class. Reck stayed in the stolen car for a few more minutes and slowly got out.
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Moving from place to place shouldn't be so bad for me, but I moved every couple months. Whenever someone got suspicious. I would walk around in long turtlenecked shirts. No matter what I always wears jeans and pants even if it's a 100 degrees out. During PE everyone can see my scars, cuts, and bruises. Noone says anything though. My name is Maena and i was abused.
I used to hate new schools. People trying to be my friends. Boys asking me out, girls trying to find more about my life and get some dirt on me. That all was about to happen again at my new school-Exaliballin Turtles. 6th school in 2 years, and I wasn't learning anything except how to deal with pain.
"Hey what's your name!" called some guy as I walked by. I, of course ignored him and continued to follow the student guiding me to homeroom. I'm never very friendly to the people at new schools. I just don't see the point, I'll be moving again in a couple of months. Why should I have to make a good impression on the people that I will probably never see again? "Paulo! What's her name!" the guy was walking by me and my guide now. Paulo, yes that was the guides name, Paulo looked at me, but I didn't react. I might not care what other people think, but I was pretty nervous anyways.
"This is Aaron," Paulo told me. I didn't respond. The guy, Aaron apparently, stuck out his hand smiling. I looked up at him and glared. I didn't want to have any part in this conversation and this Aaron kid was the person I was hoping to avoid at all costs.
"What's you name?" Aaron demanded.
I knew I would never get rid of this kid so I replied before walking off without Paulo, "My name is Maena."
"Tha'ts a pretty name," Aaron comment. Paulo and Aaron kept pace with me and and didn't respond other than to walk even faster. Paulo took over the conversation and soon after Aaron was distracted from his conversation with me. Thank goodness. We came to the english room, which is where our homeroom class was and Paulo hurried to a seat to one corner in the back. I went and sat in the other back corner. The corner I went to was the only empty corner in the whole room. I knew who would be sitting in the spot I had just sat in, but that didn't matter to me. I needed to talk to this person.
"I wouldn't sit there," somebody warned me, but I just ignored them. There was no teacher in the room to talk to yet, so I wasn't about to move anywhere.
"Seriously Maena, don't sit there," Aaron warned, he looked tempted to do something, but suddenly another person came into the room. Aaron quickly sat back down next to Paulo. The person that had just come in was a big buff guy, who was very handsome might I had. He walked right over to me, just as I knew he would do, because I was sitting in his seat.
"Get out of my seat," he ordered.
"You're Reck, aren't you?" I smiled sweetly for the first time. Reck looked around.
"How does she know me?" REck demanded. Of course, Reck would want to blame someone for this. He was just another bully in some other town. This time though, he was going to learn about me before he started the bullying. i wouldn't allow him to not know my story, since I knew his very well.
"Look at this," I handed REck a note and he quickly read it. REck reaised an eyebrow and plopped down in the seat next to me, pulling it close so we could talk quietly. Immediately the whispering began. Aaron almsot got up to go talk to me, but the teacher came in.....

Poem written after reading To Kill a Mockingbird

Innocence Fades With Time

Everyday at school,
We see little dirty snowmen all around,
The teachers wear those professional suits of theirs,
The students have those innocent smiles

Everyday at school,
You can watch as some are dragged down,
Gossip spreads like wildfire,
Everyday at school

We all act nice as we walk the halls,
Hiding anything inappropriate or mean,
Once school is out or we make it to our classes,
The snowman melts,
Showing how much innocence we lose

Everyday at school,
It gets worse for everyone,
Soon there will be only pain in these walls,
Trapped here like we all are,

As time goes by we will grow older,
We will lose the innocence that was once ours,
It’s our own doing,
Gossiping and being mean,
We bring it upon ourselves.

Everyday we lose more innocence,
Everyday we grow older,
Each day we almost leave our nest,
Our mockingbird will leave soon,
For each day it grows harder,
And even harder to not grow-up,
To stay the same sweet innocence,
That slowly is fading away.

Script Frenzy Complete

it's finally over! My friends story is of course amazing :P When I get it typed up I'll put it on here cuz I think it's hilarousssss.
So today after school Paul my bro, my friend Dylan, and me went on a random walk through town. We went over to my old neighbors and hung out there for like an hour before we tried to mow her lawn (lawnmower wouldn't turn on) so we left. From there we walked back towards the school across the highway (we so didn't almost get hit) and 2 casey's so the boys cud buy some slushys (I had no money on me :c) Then as they are eating the said slushys (mt. dew and coca-cola flavored) we walked over to Dylan's.
There we proceeded to enter the house and his little bro that is like 3yrs old or something took a liking to me. I am now called the girlfriend lolz So then we went outside because his little bro wudn't leave me alone :P and the boys played frisbee and catch while I sat on a picnic table (I can't play catch/frisbee/I didn't wanna). Then my mum picked me up took me home where I got ready for my orchestra concert. Went to it....completely and utterly failed at it and now I am HOME :) ready for bed :) Goodnight my dears I shall be back soon now that April is over and May has arrived.

Oh and Dylan tried to get me to play frisbee with them and hit me square in the nose. I wasn't paying attention because I was texting him! and yes we were texting back and forth the whole time we were hanging :P