Reasons to write....

The reason why I write is to calm myself, to help me forget what I don't wish to remember, to help me think, to keep me sane. I write because it is the only think that makes me want to keep trying. It's the only reason I attempt to do well in life. School is just a downer every day of the week. It's a place I don't want to be. It's a place where I see too much that some people consider jokes and I consider pain. It's a place that I just can't make it through the day without picking up my pencil/pen and my notebook. I have to write because how else am I going to make it through the day? When you take away my privilege to write, you are striping me of my sanity. You are making all my memories come rushing back. I am on the brink of destruction when I take out my pencil/pen at school. The brink of losing control of everything I work so hard to control. That is why I have must my writings. Without them I am nothing but a broken girl who can't do anything but cry. I am my writings. My writings reflect how I am feeling that day. I don't like people to read my writings because they are me and people make fun of me for my writings. Making fun of my writings is making fun of me. The reason I write is to get my emotions out. The reason I write is to save myself. The reason I write is for protection. The reason I write is because I can be myself in my writings. The reason I write is for forgetting. There are so many reasons that I write. There are so many people that want to take it away from me. You have to understand though. I need my writing. I need it.