Swimming

Today my friends and I went to the beach :} I absolutely love swimming. It's a release of everything that is stressing me. It didn't work today though, I feel like I'm about to explode. The water wasn't deep enough, I couldn't even tread most of the time. It doesn't matter that I couldn't tread though, because hey my ankle is injured and I CAN'T tread water very well right now. I also had to hang out with my friends.
With the mood that I have been in today, I should've been swimming laps, not stopping to hang out with them. I should've been avoiding people. Instead I had to put up with my friends and act like I was happy when all I wanted to do was be alone. I had to pretend and you don't understand how exhausting it is to pretend. You don't understand how hard it's becoming to pretend that I am okay in every single way.

Tomorrow I am going back to the beach. Tomorrow I am going to swim until I am too exhausted to continue. Tomorrow I am going with my sister and HER friends, they will leave me to my own doings. I can swim. I can be free of everything. I can relax. I can feel again.

Random Google Image :}