I probably have said this before, but in case you missed it. I have social anxiety disorder.
So today is the homecoming game for my college. My friends and I went to get food in the cafe only to find the cafe was only serving food at the tailgating party. I'm having issues with my stomach this morning. It hurts like hell, so going to the cafe was a bit much for me. I don't want to be around people today, but of course I will be around people all day. Anyway so they wanted to go get food, so I told them I wasn't going with them to this stupid tailgating party. Immediately one of them starts harassing me about how I should go and she would probably be having anxiety attacks too from being there. I don't think she gets it though. I don't like having anxiety attacks and I know my limits. Today I will more than likely have a few anxiety attacks because I can't avoid them. I am going to avoid them for as long as I possibly can though! There is no point in putting myself through anxiety attacks when I can easily avoid the situation.
I'm pissed off that my friends have made me feel guilty for not being able to go to the tailgating party. It isn't my fault I can't control my anxiety levels! I don't like feeling guilty for things that shouldn't be my fault. Now this moment is going to always be playing in my mind as the moment I disappointed them. I hate it -.-
No comments:
Post a Comment